A ​Court of Silver Flames (A Court of Thorns and Roses, #4) by Sarah J. Maas | Review

Rating: 5 out of 5.

ohmygod I’m sobbing that was so beautiful

All hail Queen Nesta and SJM for making me love her so much

My favourite ACOTAR book by far


I don’t know what to do with myself now.

Like actually, I think I’m gonna be in a book hangover for weeks— no, months omg I cannot. This has to be the most times I’ve ever cried in a book I swear to god I’m still crying right now.

From the beginning of the book to the end…even the acknowledgments , all of it destroyed me. My heart—

This has been said many times, but I love you so much Sarah. Sarah, my queen. Sarah, my goddess. My love for SJM will never cease to exist.

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🛑Note: The first part will have NO SPOILERS, while the 2nd will definitely have SPOILERS. I’ll have a warning when it comes to that.

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“Everyone deserves happiness. The road there isn’t easy. It is long, and hard, and often travelled utterly blind. But you keep going.

Because you know the destination will be worthwhile.”

This is Nesta’s special journey. Nesta’s journey through dealing with her trauma. Struggling with the pain she’s been in and healing. Finding the ability to love herself.

I didn’t think SJM could write a better book for mental health than ACOMAF, but I believe right here, she did exactly that. There wasn’t a single scene where I didn’t feel like my heart was breaking.

This was such an emotional ride. I could actually relate to Nesta and while it isn’t as severe as her, there are times where I’d also hate myself and feel like I deserve nothing. And seeing Nesta deal with all of this — it broke me in so many ways. To have her in so much pain and think that she herself has to change in order to be “fixed”… ohmygod no I swear I cant.😭🤚

Then there was Cassian. I love how he wouldn’t give up on Nesta and even while trying to help her, he still didn’t let her get away with everything. He kept reaching out his hand throughout it all. But in the end, the only person who could heal Nesta was Nesta herself.

You can help someone as much as you want, but at the end of all that, it’s up to them to see past that darkness and find the light. To love themselves and be happy with who they are.

To heal the parts of you that hurt so much and hurt others.

im crying again dammit This book hit me so hard. I’m actually such a mess. I never thought I could love a book this much. Not surprised it was Queen SJM that did this to me.

I will never forget the impact Nesta’s story had on me. There’s no doubt that I’ll be rereading this so many times in the future. Already I feel like rereading. My god, what has she done to me sobs is this what love feels like?

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🛑SPOILER part of the review below. Do not go past this if you haven’t read ACOSF.🛑

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She would not be mastered by anything again. She was the master of herself.

I know I talked about Nesta already but seriously she’s such a queen. Cassian wasn’t the only one there for her. We’re introduced to new characters in this book and I love it. Honestly, it had to be my favourite part of her story.

Nesta’s friendship with Emerie and Gwyn was so, so, so wholesome and sweet. Each of them had their own past that haunted them and were afraid for the other to find out. But that’s exactly what made them fit so well together. That moment where they all shared their secrets with each other, realizing that the other wouldn’t be judging them…I cried so much not surprising omg it was so beautiful to see them open up.

Their love for each other was tested especially when they had to participate in The Blood Rite. I was so shook, I actually didn’t think they’d be doing it, but ohmygod that was so stressful. I was terrified SJM would destroy me again and kill Emerie or Gwyn. Thank god she took pity on our poor hearts.

Also, omg them training to be Valkyries dsfdsfgd YES YES YES. I LOVED that so much. And to see them in action during The Blood Rite against those bastards??? Perfection.but also really stressful bc my gurls🥺 ALSO THE FRIENDSHIP BRACELETS OHMYGOD I CANNOT. HEARTBREAKING AND BEAUTIFUL.

I legit hope Gwyn and Emerie play bigger roles in the next two books, especially ahem because I have some ships in mind.😏 Yes, I may be too early but I believe in EmeriexMor and AzrielxGwyn🙏

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“The first time I saw that look on your face, you were still human. Still human, and I nearly went to my knees before you.”

Tell me, what’s one of the most heartbreaking scenes you’ve ever read?

I’ll tell you mine — CHAPTER 50. That was so heart-wrenching, my heart died. My own sisters were looking at me like I was insane. But something even more heartbreaking?

CASSIAN CRYING

That completely and utterly destroyed me. I was dying on the inside. Just thinking about him crying, is making me cry. I swear to god, I literally put my heart through torture reading this.

Seeing through Cassian’s POV is the greatest gift we could’ve asked for. All the flaws and insecurities he feels, I’m in so much p a i n. I adore him even more than before. He was there for Nesta and Nesta was there for him, my heart-

“Forgiveness is not that easy.”

“Forgiveness is something we also grant ourselves. And I can talk to you until these mountains crumble around us, but if you don’t wish to be forgiven, if you don’t want to stop feeling this way…it won’t happen.”

Hello? Please stop destroying me. Please, Cas.

“You don’t need to become some impossible ideal. You don’t need to become sweet and simpering. You can give everyone that I Will Slay My Enemies look—which is my favourite look, by the way. You can keep that sharpness I like so much, that boldness and fearlessness. I don’t want you to ever lose things, to cage yourself.”

STOP. THE. PAIN. * cries * Cas, when did you become so wise and give such heart crushing speeches?? This is one of the most beautiful lines I’ve ever read. No question about it.

Also, to finally find out what was in the solstice gift Cassian wanted to give Nesta — it was A BOOK. Okay imma stop right there, I’m crying again. I cant do this.🥺😭

(And Azzy & Nesta’s friendship…sobs beautiful. HE GAVE HER A FAELIGHT FOR READING AS A SOLSTICE GIFT. PLEASE, MY HEART-)

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“That’s the key, isn’t it? To know the darkness will always remain, but how you choose to face it, handle it…that’s the important part. To not let it consume. To focus upon the good, the things that fill you with wonder.”

“The struggle with that darkness is worth it, just to see such things.”

Am I really dedicating a whole section to The House of Wind? Yes, yes I am.

I absolutely love Nesta, but my god The House of Wind is the BEST part of this book. Absolutely amazing and kind. I didn’t I could love a house so much, but here I am.

Nesta wished for a friend and the House became that friend for her. It encouraged her to do more, pushed her to try more. The House reads romance novels. I’m crying, I love the House so much. And the darkness that swirled at the bottom of the library?? I can’t believe that was the heart of the House ohmygod please I love it. The way Nesta accepted the way it was, just like the House did that for her…sdfgdsfs I’m in pain. sobs too much for my heart.

AND IT GAVE NESTA CHOCOLATE CAKE AND ROMANCE BOOKS. What’s not to love about the House??? woah wait, why is this reminding me of celaena with her love of chocolate cake and books shook

The House of Wind is e v e r y t h i n g.

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“I went into the Cauldron, too, you know. And it captured me. And yet somehow all you think of is what my trauma did to you.

(This is Nesta’s book, but I just have to say this.)

I’m guilty of this too, but I think most of us hated Elain because of how we saw her, being sweet, kind and useless…and judged her right away, forgetting that she also is still suffering going into the Cauldron and with what happened in the war against Hybern.

Just like Nesta, Elain has a different way of showing her trauma and that’s by hiding it away and making it look like she’s okay, using the image everyone thinks of her being–sweet and kind. It’s just like we all think of her and hate her for that. Everyone expects Elain to be one thing, so she acts like that BUT is that truly Elain?

So yeah, I judged her too early. (Feysand’s POV really helped with this too) I shouldn’t hate her right away because there’s still her story to be told. I’m actually excited to see that.

But even knowing all of this, I still don’t like Elain.🤷‍♀️ I understand it and everything but just something about her rubs me off the wrong way. I don’t hate her, but I don’t like her either. I have no doubt Sarah will make us love, or at the very least, like Elain next book.

Also, I seriously do not ship her with Azriel.

I believe Azriel and Gwyn would be such a beautiful pair ohmygod I’d love that so much. If the three brothers get with the three archeron sisters…no no no, please no. And I absolutely love the Azriel POV. My heart is hurting so much for Azzy🥺 He needs the love he deserves.

Omg every time he’d appear as the “chaperone” for Nesta and Cassian–omg I was dying of laughter. I loved those scenes. Poor Azzy having to deal with Nesta and Cas, tsk tsk naughty Fae. But the friendship between Nesta and Azzy ohmygod my heart, im crying it was so beautiful. Azzy have Nesta

Also, something else as to why I think AzrielxElain wont be endgame is because during the solstice dance, both Cas and Eris talk about how smothered/plain Elain is wearing black, which I feel like is SJM’s way of saying that Elain isn’t compatible with The Night Court and it’s darkness & shadows. ahhh I truly feel like she’s going to go to another court in the next book.

Also Azzy’s shadows disappear when they’re around Elain. Meanwhile, the shadows dont disappear around Gwyn…they come alive around her. I don’t know about you, but it looks like SJM is trying to say something👀 I stan Gwynriel

“I am the rock against which the surf crashes.”

“Nothing can break me.”

AND THE FACT THAT AZZY SINGS AND GWYN SINGS SDFGSDFD I CANT😭🤚

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“I’ll deny it to the grave if you tell anyone, but I missed you too, Cursebreaker.”

Helion is amazing sdfgdsfsdf I love him so much. I think we can all agree with needing more Helion these next few books. And for Lucien to find out the truth🥺 We need a Lucien book so bad omg so many books needed.

I’m so curious as to what really was going on when Nesta asked about Jurian & Vassa and Lucien replied sharply HMM I may be reading too much into that, but something’s going on ughhh I wanna know more about those three.

ALSO, ERIS. There is SO MUCH MORE to Eris then is shown. I really want to see more Eris and his story. I believe there’s a lot more to him and Cas even sees that he’s a decent guy.

Oh, another thing I forgot to mention was the fact that Nesta Made three magic weapons and one of them she named the sword Ataraxia, which means Inner Peace…I’m in love. I stan Nesta so much. She grew to be so much stronger than she was before annnnnd the tears are coming in again.😃✌

This reminds me of Feyre and Nesta’s relationship. sobs It brings me joy to see the two finally understand and show their love for each other. No matter what, Feyre wouldn’t give up on her either. She tried so hard to help Nesta and I love Feyre so much for that. Unlike cough some people cough Rhysand. I actually despised him at one point in the novel, it was so messed up. I don’t love him anymore, but I’m glad everything’s good between Nesta and Rhys now.

Although, I have to say that when Nesta apologized to everyone it irked me. Like yeah, she did say harmful things to them, but the Inner Circle did too?? Honestly, they should’ve apologized too, mainly Rhys and Amren but ah, that didn’t happen rage they should grovel at her feet.

Those last few chapters had crying with them so much ohmygod even though I knew Rhys and Feyre wouldn’t die sdfgdsfg TALK ABOUT STRESSFUL. To see them all in so much pain and fear broke me so much.

Their baby boy’s name is Nyx — please erase my feelings. So beautiful that ending. Dark haired, blue eyed Nyx.🥺 I’m crying god.

(Okay I’ll stop being an emotional mess.)

OMG WAIT. JUST ONE MORE THING I REALIZED. THIS:

THAT WAS AELIN. AELIN WAS THE RED SHOOTING STAR OHMYGOD I AM SHOOK FR WTH OMG I DIDNT NOTICE THAT THE FIRST TIME WHAT THE HELL SARAH. OMG YOU WITCH, I LOVE YOU. FDDSFGDSDF AELIN APPEARED OHMYGODD I CANT GET OVER THIS. AELIN FLEW THROUGH THE 26 REALMS

(Okay, NOW I’ll stop)

All in all, this was absolutely perfect in my eyes. minus the too much smut Sarah has once again made me fall in love with her book and now I don’t know what to do with my life.

I pray that the next book is about Az and I’m hoping that it comes out next year.

Thank you, Sarah, for creating this beautiful and inspiring story.

In the beginning
And in the end
There was Darkness
And nothing more.

𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥’𝕤 𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕗𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕞𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕒𝕝 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕥𝕙 𝕣𝕖𝕡 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕤? ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕 𝔸ℂ𝕆𝕊𝔽? 𝕎𝕙𝕠’𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕗𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕣?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕