House of Earth and Blood (Crescent City, #1) by Sarah J. Maas | Review – I fell in loveee

Bryce Quinlan had the perfect life—working hard all day and partying all night—until a demon murdered her closest friends, leaving her bereft, wounded, and alone. When the accused is behind bars but the crimes start up again, Bryce finds herself at the heart of the investigation. She’ll do whatever it takes to avenge their deaths.

Hunt Athalar is a notorious Fallen angel, now enslaved to the Archangels he once attempted to overthrow. His brutal skills and incredible strength have been set to one purpose—to assassinate his boss’s enemies, no questions asked. But with a demon wreaking havoc in the city, he’s offered an irresistible deal: help Bryce find the murderer, and his freedom will be within reach.

As Bryce and Hunt dig deep into Crescent City’s underbelly, they discover a dark power that threatens everything and everyone they hold dear, and they find, in each other, a blazing passion—one that could set them both free, if they’d only let it.

With unforgettable characters, sizzling romance, and page-turning suspense, this richly inventive new fantasy series by #1 New York Times bestselling author Sarah J. Maas delves into the heartache of loss, the price of freedom—and the power of love.

Rating: 5 out of 5.

SJM keeps breaking my heart over and over again and I keep coming back every. single. time.

I have a very toxic relationship with her books.


But I will never stop coming back to them, because stopping is like telling me to stop breathing. Does that sound dramatic? Because I’m dead serious. The day I stop reading Sarah’s books is when you know my angelic spirit has fallen and I’ve been possessed by one of those devils. cough you know who you are cough

And every time I finish one of her books, I feel like I’m overflowing with love. There’s so much happiness, heartbreak, and then excruciating pain as I realize that I have to wait a millennium for the next book. Oh, and the slump that comes afterwards💀

Curse all of you who told me to read this right now. Each and every one of you are devils.



I know some people found the beginning to be slow, but I actually didn’t have any problems with it. I found it perfect, learning about the world and the characters was beautiful. I wasn’t bored for one second and it literally makes me so happy because I was scared this wouldn’t meet my expectations. Shame on me for doubting this queen.

And don’t even get me started on the ending of this masterpiece. I did not see any of that coming (view spoiler)[except I had a feeling Bryce would have some special power and she did, which I totally don’t mind because SHE MADE THE DROP AND IS STRONGER THAN THE AUTUMN KING AHAHAHAHA (hide spoiler)] I was literally sobbing so much. What is it with the ending always destroying me??? It was so beautiful and heartbreaking, I swear.

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“That’s the point of it, Bryce. Of life. To live, to love, knowing that it might all vanish tomorrow. It makes everything that much more precious.”

I’ve loved every one of SJM’s female protagonists, but ohmygod Bryce Quinlan totally beats them all. She literally leaves me in awe. The way she loves so much, and would live life to its fullest—that is until the death of her friends, Danika Fendyr and The Pack of Devilssobbing From there, she’s an empty shell of her former self.

And the thing is that we barely knew Danika and the others we were even warned smh yet it was still heartbreaking when they were murdered and watching Bryce in so much pain just broke me. Leave it to Sarah to be able to destroy my soul for characters that only appeared in the first 100 pages. Danika and Bryce’s friendship was so beautiful I could cry for eternity and still never recover from what happened. Bryce, my queen.🥺

Even heartbroken, she tried so hard to make it seem like she’s okay so that those around her wouldn’t worry, putting on the image of the classic party girl who doesn’t give a care in the world, meanwhile she’s slowly breaking more and more on the inside—

Okay, but the way Bryce is bold enough to snap selfies right in front of the Archangel, Sandriel, and can literally make the Umbra Mortis feel like he’s three inches tall is actually just too good.

The Umbra Mortis looked pissed, his arms crossed and wings flaring slightly, but Bryce just breezed past him without so much as a glance. Causing Athalar to slowly turn, arms slackening at his sides, as if such a thing had never happened in his long, miserable life.

I seriously could go on forever with the amount of times Hunt was so pissed by Bryce, especially in the beginning ahaha omg.

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“Bryce was a ghost for a long while, Hunt. She pretended she wasn’t, but she was​.” The helicopter finally pulled into the air. “You brought her back to life.”

From the moment Hunt Athalar looked Bryce right in the eye and told her to “calm the fuck down,” I knew I’d love him. I mean, who wouldn’t???

I can definitely see similarities between Hunt and all of Sarah’s other male love interests but you know what? Hunt is a thousand times better than Rowan and Rhysand. I love the way he challenges Bryce and tries to care for her, while at the same time not being super overprotective cough unlike some people, although there is still the 2nd book for him to act like that hopefully not He’s the typical tall, dark and brooding guy who has a tragic backstory—just like Rowan (altho he has white hair but you get what I mean) and Rhysand, yet somehow I actually love him way more than both.

Bryce’s relationship with Hunt is most definitely superior to all of Sarah’s other series’ relationships involving the main characters. Like the banter?? The openness of it?? The heartwarming scenes??? Perfection. I could literally compile all of their convos into a whole book and never get tired of reading them. Their interactions were pure gold.

“You’re my friend. Who watches trashy TV with me and puts up with my shit. You’re the person I don’t need to explain myself to—not when it matters. You see everything I am, and you don’t run away from it.”

Also, just… the shower scene sobbing it was so beautiful and heartbreaking and that’s all I need to say.

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“The only thing I want to be called right now is your brother.” He added softly, “If you’ll have me.”

I literally love almost every character in this book, but of all of them, Ruhn Danaan is just everything. He’s such a cinnamon roll. So sweet and trying so hard to be there for Bryce after their falling out years before. That scene at the end had me crying so much. I love you, Ruhn.

Okay, but even though Ruhn is everything, I would marry Declan Emmet. Declan is my favourite i know, how could i possibly have chosen a favourite?? He’s who I’ve fallen in love with. Why you ask? This guy is a computer geek, master hacker, tech god (thinking abt a certain scene iykyk) and I love that. Plus he’s charming, gorgeous and super sweet?? I’ve fallen so hard for Declan, it’s not even funny🤚

Also being with Declan would mean I could be friends with Ruhn and Flynn🥺 I love the trio omg

Seriously though, can I have a Declan?? I’ve found a new book boyfriend omg😭 Oh also I want Tharion, too. Knowing that there’s going to be 200% more Tharion in CC2 makes my heart happy sdfsfs there can never be enough Tharion.

“Bryce, this is Tharion Ketos.” She stepped closer to the concrete edge of the quay. “An old friend.”

Tharion grinned at Hunt again. “Not as old as you.”

Bryce gave the male a half smile. “Nice to meet you.”

Tharion’s light brown eyes glittered. “The pleasure, Bryce, is all mine.”

Tharion is such a a flirt and I love it. I need more Tharion Ketos <33

AND THEN AIDAS. omg do you know how much it killed me after seeing how much the fandom loved him and then me finding out that he only appears once??? what. the. hell. So not fair😭 yet with that one appearance, I already love him. Not as much as Tharion, Ruhn, and Declan of course, but still ahhh he’s such an interesting demon kitty. And I love demon kitties.

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🛑MAJOR SPOILERS BELOW🛑

I actually thought something was wrong with me when I had a hundred pages left, and I still hadn’t cried at all . Like there were some emotional scenes and I got teary-eyed, but no actual sob-fest. And especially after hearing from literally everyone I know that CC destroyed them, I was so confused?? nervous laughter little did I know that those last hundred pages would indeed break me.

“We were supposed to do this together. We were supposed to live out our lives together”

Danika being there for Bryce while she made the Drop ohmygod I was sobbing. The “Light it up” scene—I swear I wanted to die. And it was also 2am in the morning when I was reading this sooo💀

Also I’ll never forget how shocked everyone, but especially Sandriel, was when Bryce just casually vacuumed up the ashes of Micah. Best scene by far. Along with Hunt ripping off Sandriel’s head, of course.😌

Then Lele sacrificing herself in order to give Bryce enough time to be able to kill Micah- THAT ONE LINE. I SEE WHAT YOU DID SARAH😭😭 “My friends are with me and I am not afraidthe exact line is I will not be afraid sdfdsfs but close enough sobs Sam

Okay and finding out that Bryce was so close to jumping at one point after Danika’s death ohmygod that hurt so much and Juniper being there for Bryce before she did–I can’t deal with all of that😭

I keep saying certain scenes are my favourite BUT THIS SERIOUSLY IS MY FAVOURITE TOO. Declan, aka the love of my life, hacking into all the cameras & calls and livestreaming everything was amazing omg. Micah being exposed was the best part–or wait, everyone hearing Ember Quinlan act all smug towards the Autumn King, while he raged might’ve been the best. hmmm the struggles ahhh everything was perfect ohmygod I love you Declan.

OMG and the part where Bryce wrote back to Connor after having the thread saved for 2 years.😭😭 And Bryce seeing the pack towards the end omg omg I’m going to start crying again.

Bryce’s eyes stung as she smiled softly, then read through Connor’s last words to her.

“Message me when you’re home safe.”

Bryce began typing. The answer it had taken her two years, nearly to the day, to write.

“I’m home.”

There was one scene where I probably shouldn’t have been laughing and instead crying, but I couldn’t help it. Hunt trying to bring Bryce back to life and what he said-

“I heard what you said.” Pump, pump, pump went his powerful arms. “What you waited to admit until I was almost dead, you fucking coward.” His lightening surged into her, sending her body arcing off the ground as he tried to jump-start her heart. He snarled in her ear, “Now come say it to my face.”

I love these two so much ohmygod I’m not going to bother saying that I hope they’re endgame, because I know they are. There’s no way after everything that’s happened that Sarah would just ruin all of that in the next book, especially because Hunt and Bryce’s relationship is like Rowaelin and Feysand. Both accepted everything about the other and didn’t shy away from it. The only reason I could imagine that they wouldn’t be endgame is if Sarah kills off Hunt-

yea no, forget I even said that. Sarah wouldn’t dare🙂🔪🔪🔪

🛑SPOILERS HAVE ENDED🛑

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So as you can tell, Sarah has once again destroyed me beyond recognition and I honestly think I’m going to slowly wither away waiting for CC2. At least let there be a release date. PLEASE??? sobbing I’m not joking when I said I curse all of you. I’ll have my revenge one day 🙂

Now you see, usually I’m all for recommending masterpieces, but for this…hell no.

If you value your sanity, then you will not read HOEAB right now. If you value your sanity, you’ll wait until there’s at least a release date for CC2. If you value your sanity, you’ll wait until CC2 itself is released.

But if you have no self-control and/or think sanity is overrated like me, then go on ahead. I wish you all the luck in the world because you’ll soon regret that decision.

“Through love, all is possible.”

Will my love for Declan Emmet have the release date for CC2 be revealed faster???

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honorable mention: thank you krizzie, el, and mashie for listening to my screaming, fangirling, and terrible theories!! I still curse you three the most tho <33 ik, what an honor

ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕 ℍ𝕠𝕦𝕤𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝔼𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕙 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝔹𝕝𝕠𝕠𝕕? 𝕎𝕙𝕠’𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕗𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕣? 𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥’𝕤 𝕒 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕪𝕠𝕦’𝕧𝕖 𝕓𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕞𝕖𝕒𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕠 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕒 𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪 𝕝𝕠𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕚𝕞𝕖?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

Hana Khan Carries On by Uzma Jalaluddin | ARC Review

Eternally thankful to Harper Collins Canada for sending me an ARC in exchange for an honest review!!

From the author of Ayesha at Last comes a sparkling new rom-com for fans of “You’ve Got Mail,” set in two competing halal restaurants

Sales are slow at Three Sisters Biryani Poutine, the only halal restaurant in the close-knit Golden Crescent neighbourhood. Hana waitresses there part time, but what she really wants is to tell stories on the radio. If she can just outshine her fellow intern at the city radio station, she may have a chance at landing a job. In the meantime, Hana pours her thoughts and dreams into a podcast, where she forms a lively relationship with one of her listeners. But soon she’ll need all the support she can get: a new competing restaurant, a more upscale halal place, is about to open in the Golden Crescent, threatening Three Sisters.

When her mysterious aunt and her teenage cousin arrive from India for a surprise visit, they draw Hana into a long-buried family secret. A hate-motivated attack on their neighbourhood complicates the situation further, as does Hana’s growing attraction for Aydin, the young owner of the rival restaurant—who might not be a complete stranger after all.

As life on the Golden Crescent unravels, Hana must learn to use her voice, draw on the strength of her community and decide what her future should be. 

Rating: 3 out of 5.

THIS. this is the Muslim rep i’ve been looking for😭😭 and the story in general was just amazing

although, i must say that it was the characters that felt kind of flat for me :/ while i could connect with the main character, especially when it came to dealing with Islamophobia, i didn’t really love her or any of the other characters, which is what made me give this 3.5 stars instead of 4. for me, if the characters are written so well and im in love with them, i dont care if there’s a bad/no plot as long as the characters are good enough to keep me engaged and enjoy myself. if the plot’s good but i dont like/care the characters… that’ll definitely affect my rating = the case here.

OKAY BUT THE MUSLIM REP AND ISSUES THAT WERE DEALT WITH HERE WAS PERFECT. i went into this book hoping that there would be good representation of Islam and i was not disappointed🥺👏👏 the main character, Hana, didn’t feel oppressed by her parents nor did she hate her religion. it’s just normal. and she’d actually follow the rules in Islam. also the fact that she would fight back (in a non-violent way ofc) against those who threw insults at her or spoke in a condescending tone because she wore a hijab was amazing.

“No one knows when the dark days will descend, only that they come for us all.”

i love how deep this book got in not only how often cultures/races have to deal with so much hatred, but also the stereotypes that others assume represent a whole group of people. i could 100% understand the frustration the main character was feeling when it came to ideas of what to broadcast about Muslims, the options being only the stereotypes people have hear and nothing else. it made me happy seeing Hana refuse to back down from what she believed to be right. there was also the main character actually praying and going to halaqah and salat al jumaa (friday prayer) which didnt feel like tokenization!!!

also, i definitely wasn’t expecting that plot twist👀 i have to say though, that i didn’t really like the love interest — like i dont hate him, but nor i do care about him. although i did love how the ending was realistic and not everything was all happy and solved.

so while i didn’t love this book, i did really like it and will definitely be reading more from this author!! im just so happy that the Muslim rep was done well, like i cant even express it. definitely recommend this to anyone who wants to see a great representation of Islam/Muslims!!

“While I am scared of what the future will bring, the uncertainty has been refreshing in a strange way. I know who I am in a way I never have before, and know what I’m willing to sacrifice to stay true to myself. I guess that’s not a bad lesson to learn at any age.”

(3.5⭐)

𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥’𝕤 𝕒 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕙𝕒𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕣𝕖𝕡 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕨𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕝𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕗𝕠𝕣? 𝔸𝕟𝕪 𝕗𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖𝕤?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

Counting Down with You by Tashie Bhuiyan | ARC Review

Many thanks to Inkyard Press for sending me an ARC in exchange for an honest review!!

A reserved Bangladeshi teenager has twenty-eight days to make the biggest decision of her life after agreeing to fake date her school’s resident bad boy.
How do you make one month last a lifetime?

Karina Ahmed has a plan. Keep her head down, get through high school without a fuss, and follow her parents’ rules—even if it means sacrificing her dreams. When her parents go abroad to Bangladesh for four weeks, Karina expects some peace and quiet. Instead, one simple lie unravels everything.

Karina is my girlfriend.

Tutoring the school’s resident bad boy was already crossing a line. Pretending to date him? Out of the question. But Ace Clyde does everything right—he brings her coffee in the mornings, impresses her friends without trying, and even promises to buy her a dozen books (a week) if she goes along with his fake-dating facade. Though Karina agrees, she can’t help but start counting down the days until her parents come back.

T-minus twenty-eight days until everything returns to normal—but what if Karina no longer wants it to?

Rating: 1 out of 5.

a lot of things annoyed me but the way the Muslim aspect of this book was handled-

i am rage🙂


this was my first Muslim rep book and the disappointment and frustration im feeling is unfathomable and i was so excited ughhhh

okay, but before i get into the negatives and start ranting, i’ll say the good stuff:

-the anxiety rep in here and how the main character dealt with it was pretty good.
-how the MC fought for what degree she wanted to pursue was amazing. parents should never be forcing their child to do what something they dont want to do.
-the sibling relationship was sweet.
-this was a pretty quick read.

thats it.

and i was actually loving this in the beginning.😭 all my highlights literally showed my happiness at how the MC being Muslim was incorporated into this book. all the arabic words, her praying, other religious mentions-

then there was the MC dealing with anxiety and the pressure her parents put on her, and i felt bad for her. she was dealing with so much and was so scared to speak up about not wanting to be a doctor. her parents were absolutely ruthless when it came to discussing a change in career paths, they just went ahead and chose her future for her and i despised them.

but of course what happens next? the white boy comes into her life teaching her to be stronger, believe in herself (etc) and brings her happiness

….

silence

it’s not even that it was a white boy bringing her happiness that got me annoyed, but how the parents were villainized when it came to religion (but i understand them looking like villains when it came to not allowing her to pursue an English major — that made sense) and that of course it was the white boy who saved her from the pain and sadness she was feeling.

literally what pisses me off so much is that she’d constantly complain of the things her parents would forbid her from doing that you know, are because it’s not allowed in Islam??? like i totally am with the main character when it came to her parents not allowing her to pursue the career she wants. parents 100% should not be doing that, it’s really messed up, especially with the pressure put on their child. they really should just be happy with what their kid wants to grow up to be, and that’s the one thing i disliked about her parents.

other than that–what the hell?? the MC constantly makes out her parents to be the bad guys for other stuff, when that’s not even true ohmygod. for one thing, you aren’t supposed to date guys/have boyfriends/kiss the opposite gender in Islam. It’s not that her parents are evil and do this as a personal attack, its haram (forbidden). Yet the main character here literally is like “i want happiness, why cant they let me have be with him” — girl, im with you about wanting to find happiness with the job, but you know…shouldn’t you be faithful to your religion and understand that it’s not allowed to date so your parents are right to tell you it’s forbidden?? i am confusion. and im the same age as this girl and i know this. i dont hate on my parents???

i obviously understand that this was marketed as fake-dating trope, so im not surprised with how some of the things turned out, and she can go ahead and date the guy, but it just really makes me angry me that the main character makes her parents look evil for telling her that she isn’t allowed to date? sigh

okay, but all of that i just said — maybe some wont mind it, it’s probably just something only i and some others would be annoyed with. i just feel like if you’re gonna write about a Muslim character, don’t break that rule and cast the parents in a bad light?? idk. either way, don’t make out your parents to be evil because they won’t let you date. and it’s not even something that we need to be pitied for or looked at in horror, like what the other characters in this book did when she told them. it’s part of what we’ve learned in our religion, so respect it.

i swear, i feel like this book was trying to push the idea that all Muslim parents are strict to this degree and are harsh. it’s in no way like that. maybe some are, but the same could be said with any other race/religion — it’s just that with Muslim rep books (and cough Netlfix shows), the parents are for the most part portrayed as villains.

and yes, i saw that the MC would constantly say that she knows her religion isn’t bad, she knows her parents aren’t evil, but her actions and what she’d say/do after… she says she understands but she would still complain about them the next few pages, saying how they’re unfair?? she’d be so bitter about it and then she breaks said rules😐

but again, one thing I did love was seeing the MC go against her parents when it came to doing the degree she wanted and not what they wanted. definitely a lot of people can relate with being forced to become a doctor, engineer, or lawyer. im thankful that my parents have never pushed me to become something i dont want to be.

i just hate what this book implies. i hate that people who will read this may think that all Muslim parents are controlling and cruel to their children. i hate that some may even pity us for some of this. just no. i can tell you that im proud to be a Muslim and proud of my religion. i don’t think any of the rules/what we’re forbidden to do is harsh at all. it makes complete sense in my eyes and i love my parents. i love everything about Islam.

now let’s get to the love interest. I DESPISE Ace with every ounce of my being. he’s legit the typical white bad boy who’s secretly a softie inside once you get to know him. i do not care about him. He’s so cheesy and im all here for the cheesiness BUT NOT THIS. so many cringey scenes and i did not see the chemistry between the two at all. sure, they had kinda similar situations when it came to their families, but like?? thats it?? i dont like either of them, but especially the main character.

i seriously think in general, if an author is going to incorporate religion into a YA contemporary, then you should actually follow through with the religion?? bc if you’re not going to do that, then literally what’s the point-

and if you’re going to end up casting the religion in a negative light, then again…what’s the point?? unless you’re just trying to make others think badly on said religion?? Whether it’s Christianity, Muslim, Hinduism, Judaism, etc — follow through on those teachings. dont bother writing about a religious character in a book if you’re not even going to follow through on some of the rules and villainize the parents. thankfully at least the MC would eat halal food, occasionaly pray, and understood that getting drunk was haram. but the dating and kissing, casting her parents as evil in those aspects…no🤚

and it’s sad, because the author is Muslim so i thought it’d actually follow through on that. like the author probably didn’t mean to show Islam in a bad way, but that’s how it looked like to me. i think that maybe non-Muslims or people who aren’t really familiar with Islam will probably like this book, though.

i saw in other reviews that the Bengali rep was done poorly too — im not from Bangladesh, so i cant say anything bc i wouldn’t know, but thats so sad it wasn’t done well either 😦

anyways, im not going to waste any more of my time with this book. all i’ve gained from this is that i should never trust books with Muslim reps without having first read reviews by Muslims themselves. i shouldn’t have had high expectations🤡

𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥’𝕤 𝕒 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕨𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕖𝕩𝕔𝕚𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕕 𝕦𝕡 𝕓𝕖𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒 𝕕𝕚𝕤𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕠𝕚𝕟𝕥𝕞𝕖𝕟𝕥? 𝔸𝕟𝕪 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕨𝕚𝕤𝕙 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕝𝕖𝕕 𝕒 𝕣𝕖𝕡 𝕨𝕖𝕝𝕝?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

The Burning God (The Poppy War, #3) by R.F. Kuang | Review

After saving her nation of Nikan from foreign invaders and battling the evil Empress Su Daji in a brutal civil war, Fang Runin was betrayed by allies and left for dead. 

Despite her losses, Rin hasn’t given up on those for whom she has sacrificed so much—the people of the southern provinces and especially Tikany, the village that is her home. Returning to her roots, Rin meets difficult challenges—and unexpected opportunities. While her new allies in the Southern Coalition leadership are sly and untrustworthy, Rin quickly realizes that the real power in Nikan lies with the millions of common people who thirst for vengeance and revere her as a goddess of salvation. 

Backed by the masses and her Southern Army, Rin will use every weapon to defeat the Dragon Republic, the colonizing Hesperians, and all who threaten the shamanic arts and their practitioners. As her power and influence grows, though, will she be strong enough to resist the Phoenix’s intoxicating voice urging her to burn the world and everything in it? 

The exciting end to The Poppy War trilogy, R. F. Kuang’s acclaimed, award-winning epic fantasy that combines the history of twentieth-century China with a gripping world of gods and monsters, to devastating, enthralling effect.

Rating: 4.5 out of 5.

Guys, this was the happiest book ever!! Happy ending! Happy characters! Happy everything! Kuang couldn’t have written it better! Everyone’s happy, safe… I dont know why people are saying this is heartbreaking? If anything, it’s heartwarming!

My heart totally didn’t feel like it was being ripped out of my chest and thrown into a shredder! I totally did not go to sleep crying and wake up again crying! I totally don’t feel like I need someone to pay for my therapy bills!

No, not at all.

I’m completely fine.


yea no, I feel like I’m dying. I am dying. This pain should be illegal. What is happiness? This is so depressing. And me, the masochist, keeps going back to the last two chapters sobs what am I doing to myself?

Please end me.


Funny how I said that reading Clockwork Princess, The Hero of Ages (etc) were the most I’ve ever cried — HA I lied. No book like The Burning God’s ending has ever made me sob this much. I am dead. It’s to the point where every single time I close my eyes, I picture the ending and that is not okay. Kuang, what have you done to me???

There’s no peace, only pain. This has quite literally left a scar on my heart and soul forever. Not only did Kuang bury the knife deep into my heart, but she twisted it causing me excruciating pain.

I actually can’t think about this book without crying, so this review is basically me as an emotional wreck. Sorry but not really in advance.

(Also, there are no spoilers in this review until the end when I give out the warning!!)

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“The point of revenge wasn’t to heal. The point was that the exhilaration, however temporary, drowned out the hurt.”

This whole journey has been full of trust, love, hatred, revenge, pain… I’ve never before seen such a story have so many complex issues. It’s astounds me.

Rin’s character has developed so much. I can’t believe this all started with poor 14 year old Rin who just wanted to get out of marriage by studying to enroll in Sinegard… to this. It breaks my heart when I see how much she’s gone through.

And it’s not just Rin. Kitay, Venka, Nezha, Atlan, the Cike… they’ve all suffered so much throughout the whole series. Kuang is a demon with her characters. There’s literally nobody in this trilogy who hasn’t suffered. Of course, some had it coming and deserved it, but others… sobs no, no, they definitely didn’t deserve that.

I swear, it brought me so much joy seeing Rin finally accept who she was and where she came from, and be proud of it. These last two books, she’d constantly be insulted because of her dark-skin and having come from Tikany, a poor village in Rooster Province. Because of this, she hated herself and thought the others to be superior, trying to cut all ties with her former village.

However, here Rin learned to embrace it all. She accepted everything that she was and most importantly, she did not bow to anyone. Rin’s now chooses to be in command.

No longer would she be the submissive fool she once was. although she still makes some pretty dumb mistakesShe leads. She gives the orders. She deals out the punishments. I literally love this girl.

And after the ending of The Dragon Republic, I was so looking forward to retribution. I am not completely satisfied, but satisfied enough. The pain she dealt to certain people was amazing. My only complaint was that it wasn’t dragged out longer for a certain person :’ (

“It doesn’t go away. It never will. But when it hurts, lean into it. It’s so much harder to stay alive. That doesn’t mean you don’t deserve to live. It means you’re brave.”

Please, Kitay actually deserves everything. While I had conflicted feelings throughout this series about Rin, Nezha, and others — my love for Kitay was the only constant. When I say not one moment did I hate him, I mean not one moment.

From the moment I met this cinnamon roll in The Poppy War, I fell in love and automatically knew he had to be protected at all costs.

Literally their friendship was so heartbreaking and beautiful. Watching them argue over and over again, but then come back still loving the other so much ohmygod-

This. THIS is literally a perfect example on how platonic love can be just as amazing, actually even better , than a romantic one. I love it. I love it. I love it so much.

Kitay was the anchor to Rin’s sanity. He’d always try preventing her from making rash and stupid decisions. He’s her moral conscience.

Can I just please go back to the first book? I thought TPW was horrifying and depressing, AHAHA what a joke, TPW is heaven compared to the rest of the series.

I want my children to stay happy together at Sinegard sobs this torture. Erase everything that’s happened after that moment. I want a Kitay. My baby-

Also it was amazing learning so much more about the Trifecta. Their history, the missions they made, each and every one of them and how they acted… all I have to say is damn.

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(🛑MAJOR SPOILERS for the end of TBG start here!! Skip to the bottom if you don’t want to be spoiled🛑)

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“Dying was easy. Living was so much harder—that was the most important lesson Atlan had ever taught her.”

So you’re telling me, all that hard work, all that pain, torture, and suffering, all those years of war….

ONLY for Kitay and Rin to die like that???

They beat the Hesperians in battle, but in the end, it was because of the famine and damage Nikan took, that the Hesperians ended up winning and I am forever destroyed.

BUT IT MAKES SENSE AND THATS WHAT HURTS THE MOST.

But all those memories they had together in the span of those 5 years — some good, mostly bad, BUT STILL. they were memories of them suffering together and I am not okay.

And the fact that Kitay and Rin’s last moments together were of them fighting breaks every part of me beyond recognition. IT HURTS. Rin thinking Kitay betrayed her ohmygod PLEASE STOP THIS PAIN.

And the fact that Kitay’s last words in this world were “You’re hurting me” to Rin absolutely destroys me and I am sobbing.

The way I can imagine Kitay’s pained expression so clearly I SWEAR ITS KILLING ME. PLEASE OMG.

And can I just say — Rin literally chose death over surrendering to the Hesperians/cooperating with them. The way she knew that this fighting would never end if she lived and never surrendered. It honestly would’ve been so wrong if she’d given up to them, but she really went ahead and said “I’d rather die than bow down to these bastards.” She literally sacrificed herself in hopes for a better world, knowing she wouldn’t be the one to do it. AND I RESPECT THAT SO MUCH, BUT IT HURTS. She died on Speerly, and I died with her.

AND I CAN’T BELIEVE OUT OF ALL OF THEM, ONLY NEZHA SURVIVED. (Although I honestly shouldn’t be surprised) Venka my baby, also died and it was so heartbreaking that she died Rin thinking she was a traitor like hell no WHY?! Venka didn’t deserve that, Kitay didn’t deserve that, what the hell. While Rin got out of bowing to the Hesperians, Nezha’s going to have to so honestly, nevermind, that’s torture itself. I could never.

It actually broke me even before the deaths started. They were all so so depressed at the end, suffered so so much, and I hate this so much, but it was so realistic.

They’ve all come a long way from the children they once were.

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🛑SPOILERS HAVE ENDED🛑

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“You never want to hurt them. But you have to. You have to put them through hell, because that’s the only way anyone else will survive.”

Oh no, I’m quite certain Kuang wanted to hurt us. We were put through hell and none of us survived, but still… this author has my heart.

I swear, if I was rating the ending itself I’d 100% give this 5 stars, but unfortunately I’m not and I have to say that some parts in the book dragged out a lot, especially during the many marches. Don’t get me wrong, they were interesting, but my mind drifted a lot.

However, despite me giving this 4.5 stars, this is most definitely an all-time-favourite because that ending broke my heart into more pieces than I could’ve possibly imagined. It was a sob-fest. And I even knew how this was going to end so I prepared myself but that didn’t work at all. Kuang is both a genius and a monster.

I hate that I can never read more about these fleshed out and glorious characters. I hate that even if I re-read, it’ll never be the same. I hate this so much, because I do not want to part with them.

But you know what, even thinking all of that I regret nothing. If anything, I regret not reading this series sooner. I will forever be grateful for the pain beautiful story Kuang has created and I know that whatever series she’s going to make next will be just as painful beautiful.

Go ahead and ruin me, Kuang.

“Do it. Take what you want… I’ll hate you for it. But I’ll love you forever. I can’t help but love you.

Ruin me, ruin us, and I’ll let you.”

(4.5⭐)

Honourable mention: I’m forever grateful to the best demon out there Mashie for being there for me while I screamed, raged, laughed, and cried. You truly made this book even more amazing than I could’ve imagined. Thank you so much🥺 I couldn’t have possibly survived the aftermath of the ending if it weren’t for you.💙

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Reviews:
The Poppy War: ★★★★.5
The Dragon Republic: ★★★★★
The Burning God: ★★★★.5

𝔻𝕚𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕝𝕤𝕠 𝕕𝕚𝕖 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕋𝔹𝔾? 𝕎𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕝𝕒𝕤𝕥 𝕥𝕚𝕞𝕖 𝕒 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕕𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕣𝕠𝕪𝕖𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪 𝕤𝕠𝕦𝕝? ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕋ℙ𝕎? (𝕚𝕗 𝕟𝕠𝕥, 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕄𝕌𝕊𝕋 𝕗𝕖𝕖𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕡𝕒𝕚𝕟 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕞𝕖)

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

April 2021 ~ TBR

I’m honestly so happy it’s April because April means finally the end of the semester and Spring break🥺 Oh, how I’ve missed freedom. A very brief taste of freedom at the very least.

Also, a book I feel like I’ve been waiting forever for is finally being released ahhh and I’m finally going to read books I’ve been meaning to read for awhile hehe. And then there are lots of buddy reads me and my friends have planned omg I’m so excited!! So many books sdfsds I’m going to make April the month with the most read books😤


Yes, it’s finally happening!! At long last, I’m reading House of Earth and Blood and ohmygod I already know I’m going to regret reading it right now BECAUSE THERE’S STILL NO RELEASE DATE FOR BOOK 2😭 Oh the pain, but I’m loving so much rn🥺 Athie and Bryce are everything.

This is so shaping up to be my favourite SJM book ever.


I’ve realized that I should probably stop procrastinating on reading my ARCs, so here I am. It’s said to be a reversed Beauty & the Beast retelling so I’m super excited to see how that plays out!!


It’s finally time. Time to re-read and to get ready for The Crown of Gilded Bones which coming out on the 20th AHHH IM SO EXCITED. omg I read FBAA back when it came out and fell in love with the story. Although recently I’ve seen so many mixed opinions and read a lot more reviews, so now I wonder how I’ll feel about this book 2nd time around🧐


Of course, another re-read of this😌 I’m definitely hoping I can get through both books before TCOGB comes out!!


I’m actually just so so scared of this book. Some people have gotten ARCS (so lucky ahh!!) and the reactions I’ve seen over the ending I-

I’m terrified😭 I can already tell the wait for book 4 is literally going to kill me. rip me

Also, I love that cover so much


Finally reaching the end of this buddy re-read and I’m so sad🥺🥺 I don’t want to part with Emi, Shiro, and Yumei * cries *


I’ve literally seen so much love for Skyward and I’m so happy that I’m finally reading it. I loved Sanderson’s Mistborn series so honestly, I have no doubt I’ll fall in love with this too. I’ve also been threatened that I’d be killed if I didn’t like this🙃


First of all, that cover is creepily amazing. A dear friend of mine loves this series and I’m going to be (again) buddy reading this book with other friends im committing myself to a lot of buddy reads hehe I’ve been warned that this series is going to destroy me, so that’s fun!!🙂🔫


And the ToG buddy read marathon continues!! As of now, Heir of Fire is my favourite, but let’s see if Queen of Shadows ends up beating that👀 I can’t wait to see more of my queen Aelin! ALSO ELIDE. I NEED TO BE REUNITED WITH ELIDE LOCHAN🥺 and Lorcan

I’m counting on myself to read all of this. All I just need to do is survive this week and I’ll be free of school and relax during Spring break. Ah, I’m also definitely going to try being more active in blogging and make up for March. I hope April goes by as slow as possible🤞

𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕝𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕨𝕒𝕣𝕕 𝕥𝕠 𝕚𝕟 𝔸𝕡𝕣𝕚𝕝? 𝔸𝕟𝕪 𝕟𝕖𝕨 𝕣𝕖𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕤𝕖𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦’𝕣𝕖 𝕖𝕩𝕔𝕚𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕗𝕠𝕣? 𝔸𝕟𝕪 𝕘𝕠𝕒𝕝𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕