This Vicious Grace (The Last Finestra #1) by Emily Thiede | ARC Review

Three weddings. Three funerals. Alessa’s gift from the gods is supposed to magnify a partner’s magic, not kill every suitor she touches.

Now, with only weeks left until a hungry swarm of demons devours everything on her island home, Alessa is running out of time to find a partner and stop the invasion. When a powerful priest convinces the faithful that killing Alessa is the island’s only hope, her own soldiers try to assassinate her.

Desperate to survive, Alessa hires Dante, a cynical outcast marked as a killer, to become her personal bodyguard. But as rebellion explodes outside the gates, Dante’s dark secrets may be the biggest betrayal. He holds the key to her survival and her heart, but is he the one person who can help her master her gift or destroy her once and for all?

Emily Thiede’s exciting fantasy debut, This Vicious Grace, will keep readers turning the pages until the devastating conclusion and leave them primed for more!

Rating: 4.5 out of 5.

grumpy but sweet bodyguard love interest, touch that can kill, wholesome romance, stunning character development—ALL OF THIS <33

I had zero expectations going into this like I genuinely thought it’d be a boring book and look how wrong I was??? IM IN LOVE. Everything about This Vicious Grace was spectacular.

“She might be but one stitch in the tapestry, but every stitch had a purpose, and threads couldn’t become art without them.”

For years, Alessa has been known as the Finestra—a figure blessed by the god Dea with powers meant to fend off demons who will attack her island on the day of Divorando.

This power though… well her touch can kill anyone it comes in contact with so it’s not really a blessing she considers.

Alessa must find the right partner who can contain all the power that’s stored in her and so far she’s killed all three of her potentials. With little time remainining until Divorando, Alessa must find the one for her asap while also worrying about being assassinated by her own people, and dealing with her ✨dark and alluring✨ bodyguard, Dante👀

“And you keep saying you aren’t the hero.”
“I’m not. You’re the hero. I’m just asking a girl to hold my hand.”

GUYS THEM. ALESSA AND DANTE ARE EVERYTHING. I adore them so so much. Each are unique in their own way and just how they support one another ohmygod the love I have for these two is unexplainable.

Alessa’s longing for physical contact and even just being able to talk to someone🥺 My heart broke for her so much especially with the way people feared (and some hated) her, my precious girl didnt deserve any of that. The way she bloomed into who she wanted to be was so beautifully written and I couldn’t be more proud. She’s such a relatable character and it’s not a “throw-in-your-face” kind of relatable but written so naturally of the feelings many of us had at times. Alessa is actually just so kind, funny and bold I love her so much ❤

Dante !! Literally from the moment he appeared I knew I’d love him. He was acting all grumpy in the beginning but even then he was never actually a jerk but instead it was the little things he did that were so sweet and caring. And my love just grew from there. Dante is basically that one person who keeps saying “Im CrUeL” but literally all his actions and what he says are the exact opposite.

“Sympathy, kindness, love, and friendship—all those precious human experiences that made for a full life—those were for other people, not her.”

THE ROMANCE. THEIR RELATIONSHIP. THE CHEMISTRY. THIS. I swear it’s the definition of precious. I didn’t realize how much I loved two characters just cuddling until I read this book. I was literally dying of happiness and squealing like a fangirl as if thats not what i am in all their cuddling and interactions with one another.

That moment where Dante offered to give Alessa a hug knowing how much it would mean to her after not having contact at all with anyone for years and him pretending that he was grudingly offering this hug but we all know he wanted it just as much—that. my friends, was one of the sweetest moments I’ve ever read.

OH and then Dante and Alessa getting drunk together and playing truth or dare + Alessa blatantly ogling shirtless Dante >>> PLEASE there were too many funny moments with these two I literally reread these scenes like 10 times. An excerpt:

“Ever since you called yourself stale bread, I’ve had wicked cravings.”
He paused, shook his head, then pushed back up.
“I adore bread. Especially baguettes. Long, thick, hot and slathered with—”
He hit the ground, shaking with laughter. “Enough. Mercy. You’re a champion of lewd baking metaphors.”

I could go on forever talking about every amazing scene + the bantering with these two but I’m sure you get the idea and plus you’ll want to see them for yourself hehe

The side characters were also super interesting, and my opinion changed on many of them compared to first impressions cough thinking of two people especially. I adore Kamaria and Kaleb ksdhfksghs also I feel like I sense something between two characters that might develop (??) in the 2nd book.

Now the only reason why this didn’t get 5 stars was because even though my heart stopped for second because of that ending… some of the things that happened were pretty underwhelming? It also felt sudden and kind of rushed thinking about the build-up that led to that moment. But something small like that wasn’t really a big deal for me hence the deduction of 0.5 stars.

ANYWAYS EVERYONE NEEDS TO TRY THIS. If me gushing about the romance didn’t convince you (although how could it not smh) then go for the character development in Alessa or miss out on falling in love.

If This Vicious Grace is only a debut novel I can only imagine how amazing the author’s future books will be.

(4.5⭐)

Thank you Wednesday Books for sending me an ARC via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review!!

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Oathbringer (The Stormlight Archive, #3) by Brandon Sanderson | Review

In Oathbringer, the third volume of the New York Times bestselling Stormlight Archive, humanity faces a new Desolation with the return of the Voidbringers, a foe with numbers as great as their thirst for vengeance.

Dalinar Kholin’s Alethi armies won a fleeting victory at a terrible cost: The enemy Parshendi summoned the violent Everstorm, which now sweeps the world with destruction, and in its passing awakens the once peaceful and subservient parshmen to the horror of their millennia-long enslavement by humans. While on a desperate flight to warn his family of the threat, Kaladin Stormblessed must come to grips with the fact that the newly kindled anger of the parshmen may be wholly justified.

Nestled in the mountains high above the storms, in the tower city of Urithiru, Shallan Davar investigates the wonders of the ancient stronghold of the Knights Radiant and unearths dark secrets lurking in its depths. And Dalinar realizes that his holy mission to unite his homeland of Alethkar was too narrow in scope. Unless all the nations of Roshar can put aside Dalinar’s blood-soaked past and stand together–and unless Dalinar himself can confront that past–even the restoration of the Knights Radiant will not prevent the end of civilization.

Rating: 5 out of 5.

Leave it to Sanderson to create one of the best character developments I’ve ever seen. I went from thinking Dalinar was ‘meh’ to bawling my eyes out over his character and loving him so much.



I’m honestly just struck speechless. And like why am I even surprised?? It’s Sanderson. No words will ever be enough to convey the emotional journey I had with Oathbringer. There cannot be a journey without a beginning—and it truly shows.

“I will take responsibility for what I have done. If I must fall, I will rise each time a better man.

Dalinar’s life has been anything but peaceful—however, even with the world at chaos, he had his own self to trust and rely on knowing who and what he’s come from… but is that really true?

When memories slowly start to come back—memories buried deep within that were never supposed to emerge—shocking truths are revealed making Dalinar question whether the man he is today… has always been a lie?

“The most important step a man can take? It’s not the first one, is it? It’s the next one. Always the next step, Dalinar.”

I really don’t think I’ll be finding another character to rival Dalinar’s development in this book any time soon or maybe ever because seriously, it’s just that spectacular. Anyone who says it’s bad clearly doesn’t know what they’re talking about and I will be ready 🔪🔪

Literally every revelation thrown completely shook me to the core. I was honestly so so worried coming into this because of everything I’d heard about Oathbringer being Dalinar focused and there being some pacing issues but I needn’t have feared because I adored it all.

Dalinar’s past was so intriguing and suspenseful. Seeing the man he is today has me in awe with all that he’s gone through and done. A tyrant he was but now… now he’s something much different. cryptic message is cryptic mehehe

“Perhaps it was time, for once, to stop letting the rain dictate his mood. He couldn’t banish the seed of darkness inside him, but Stormfather, he didn’t need to let it rule him either.”

So many of Kaladin’s scenes physically hurt me. He doesn’t have as much as a focus as he did in the previous books but oh his journey is still very much ongoing. Kaladin’s depression is even more evident in this book and there’s still so much he has to work with. But oh god literally the amount of pain Kal’s had to go through with – it hurts so much. Especially a certain scene during the 2nd half😭😭

I really can’t wait to see what comes next for Kal and how he’ll battle the darkness within him. He deserves all the love in the world ❤

“I will protect those I hate. Even if the one I hate most is myself.”

While Kaladin got less screen time than usual, Bridge Four got so much more. Like getting some of their POVs??? A BLESSING. Seriously, the way Bridge Four has grown so much—it makes me want to cry. They’ve come such a long way from the defeated and lost bridgemen they once were and I’m so so proud. I never in a million years imagined Sanderson could make me love them more than I already do but clearly he’s done exactly that in Oathbringer. And I just love how even though all of Bridge Four’s grown so much—it doesn’t mean each and every one of them is completely fine.

Teft’s POV was something I never knew I needed in my life. Seeing through his POV how much he was hurting… it was so heartbreaking😭 But of course Bridge Four would be there for him AND JUST MY HEART- I said it before and I’ll say it again: Each of Bridge Four’s POV and everything about them was a blessing.

“It’s terrible to have been hurt. It’s unfair, and awful, and horrid. But Shallan… it’s okay to live on.”

CAN YOU HEAR ME SOBBING??? “The Girl Who Stood Up” is officially one of my all time favourite chapters. Shallan is going through so much hell, it’s tearing me apart. I need my girl happy😭 Her past still haunts her even now and because of that past, Shallan truly believes that she deserves all the pain in the world. She thinks herself to be broken and hates herself so much.

“Accept the pain, but don’t accept that you deserved it.”

Because of her trauma, she’s resorted to having different personas in order to escape the pain. It’s really amazing how Sanderson dealt with her storyline but at the same time—SO MUCH PAIN. Her journey’s only beginning and there’s still so much Shallan has to work through, one of them being to be able to forgive herself.

I genuinely don’t understand the people who hate Shallan??? Also, Wit being there for Shallan is literally everything. He’s so sweet, I love him so much🥺🥺

“You don’t have to hide, Shallan. You don’t have to push it down. Maybe the vase is cracked, but that only means it can show what’s inside. And I like what’s inside.”

If anyone reads this quote and tells me that Adolin and Shallan aren’t perfect for each other 🔪 Shadolin is literally in my top 3 OTPs. Honestly, how does Sanderson always create the most wholesome relationships??? Not only is Adolin a cinnamon roll as always BUT LIKE HE’S SO SUPPORTIVE OF SHALLAN?? It’s so precious and could he be anymore perfect?? Both of them support the other without a hint of judgement from their revelations sfdsfsds I love them

If Adolin and/or Shallan are killed in book 5 I will literally die and haunt Sanderson for the rest of his life 🙂 That goes for any other character I love in this series.

“Love wasn’t about being right or wrong, but about standing up and helping when your partner’s back was bowed.”

I must admit that I didn’t really have much of an opinion on Navani previously but after this book?? QUEEN. I adore her so much. And the fact that the next book is Navani focused??? I cannot express how much I’m excited for that.

“You are not a heretic, Dalinar Kholin. You are a king, a Radiant, and a father. You are a man with complicated beliefs, who does not accept everything you are told. You decide how you are defined. Don’t surrender that to them. They will gleefully take the chance to define you, if you allow it.”

I can’t believe I’m saying this but Jasnah actually annoyed me a few times HOWEVER she had so many amazing moments that definitely made up for all that. Especially that one scene !! I almost got a heart attack and right after that was crying because literally all the feels.

“You claim you are not the person everyone thinks you are. Maybe you worry, instead, that you are that person.”

Is it really any surprise that Renarin too is a cinnamon roll who must be protected at all costs??? I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND NEED MORE. He’s trying so hard to make his father proud and be useful and just-🥺 You’re already amazing, Renarin.

“Failure is the mark of a life well lived. In turn, the only way to live without failure is to be of no use to anyone.”

Of course, I already mentioned Wit but seriously, who does he think he is to turn me into an emotional mess?? He’s such a mysterious character whose motives we still don’t know, but like I love him so much?? If it ends up being that he was fooling everyone all along or something highly doubtful, I’ll be beyond heartbroken and feel very murderous towards a certain guy 🔪

I’m still reeling from that ending like what the actual hell?? The amount of plot twists and events that happened??? Like literally all the way to the very last page, its revelation after revelation. The Sanderlanche in this was no joke like I still can’t get over that last plot twist especially?? This is so much more of a cliffhanger than The Way of Kings and Words of Radiance were like oh god the torture it must’ve been waiting for the 4th book WHICH HAS ME SCARED FOR THAT CLIFFHANGER ESPECIALLY AFTER WHAT A CERTAIN SOMEONE SAID. sobbing

Also shoutout to Sanderson as of this wasnt a review for his book for creating not only such beautiful and emotional lines but also having so many of them apply to real life and be so inspiring?? That literally takes so much skill and I’m so going to use one of his quotes (now that’s going to be very painful) for my yearbook🔥

I once said in a review that I trusted Sanderson but clearly I wasn’t thinking at that time ha ha the last word I’d use to associate Sanderson with would be “trust.”

I’m not ready for the agonizing wait book 5 will be once I read Rhythm of War. Yay pain!😃

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Reviews:
The Way of Kings:: ★★★★★
Words of Radiance: ★★★★★
Oathbringer: ★★★★★

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Our Violent Ends (These Violent Delights, #2) by Chloe Gong | ARC Review

Shanghai is under siege in this captivating and searingly romantic sequel to These Violent Delights, which New York Times bestselling author Natasha Ngan calls “deliciously dark.”

The year is 1927, and Shanghai teeters on the edge of revolution.

After sacrificing her relationship with Roma to protect him from the blood feud, Juliette has been a girl on the warpath. One wrong move, and her cousin will step in to usurp her place as the Scarlet Gang’s heir. The only way to save the boy she loves from the wrath of the Scarlets is to have him want her dead for murdering his best friend in cold blood. If Juliette were actually guilty of the crime Roma believes she committed, his rejection might sting less.

Roma is still reeling from Marshall’s death, and his cousin Benedikt will barely speak to him. Roma knows it’s his fault for letting the ruthless Juliette back into his life, and he’s determined to set things right—even if that means killing the girl he hates and loves with equal measure.

Then a new monstrous danger emerges in the city, and though secrets keep them apart, Juliette must secure Roma’s cooperation if they are to end this threat once and for all. Shanghai is already at a boiling point: The Nationalists are marching in, whispers of civil war brew louder every day, and gangster rule faces complete annihilation. Roma and Juliette must put aside their differences to combat monsters and politics, but they aren’t prepared for the biggest threat of all: protecting their hearts from each other.

Rating: 5 out of 5.


I am an empty shell of my former self 😃
Chloe you’re paying for my therapy bills ❤


This is the 2nd time in my life that I’ve been this heartbroken over a book. Literally it was a full out sob-fest for me reading this.

I don’t think I will ever truly recover and really I should’ve known better but of course I foolishly hoped. My heart has been stomped on, torn into pieces and thrown into an explosion. I actually wasn’t expecting to be this heartbroken like WHY did I go ahead and fall in love with every single one of these characters?? I was literally setting myself up for pain * sobs * But oh, isn’t that the beauty of reading? To fall in love only to have your heart broken.

Just the way I got trolled so badly, like some of the events actually had me thinking otherwise but oh no no🤡 I am now and forever depressed™

I can literally imagine this was how Chloe was when she wrote OVE:

The monster of Shanghai who?? I only know Miss Chloe Gong * sobbing *


(Warning: There will be spoiler from the 1st book, These Violent Delights!!)

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“A rose is a rose, even by another name. But we choose whether we will offer beauty to the world, or if we will use our thorns to sting.”

1927 Shanghai and the city is at the brink of complete chaos. Sightings of monsters have re-emerged, the Communists have grown more bold, and the two gangs ruling the city have gone at each other out for more blood than usual.

Meanwhile, Juliette Cai is having to watch her every step in the face of Tyler–her cousin just waiting to find reason to declare Juliette a traitor and become heir to the Scarlet Gang–and watch for Roma Montagov who is out for revenge after the death of Marshall Seo. Oh and also worry about the appearances of monsters and state of the city. Life is stressful for Juliette 😦

I won’t go into anymore details of the plot because ✨spoilers✨ BUT OMG THE WAY IT GRIPPED ME FROM THE START?? It took me a while to get into TVD but this!! Literally there wasn’t a moment in this book I didn’t love. I was a ball of anxiety the whole time. of course my heart was also dying because of the wholesomeness and very few precious scenes And like I actually dropped my expectations for this because I thought and feared it wouldn’t be that good but oh how very, very wrong I was.

The characters were so much more fleshed out here?? I already liked them before in TVD but I was just so so in love with them all here to the point where I’d straight up be PRAYING they’d survive😭 Benedikt, Marshall, Kathleen… I didn’t think it was possible to adore them all so much, my heart is so full of love. And don’t even get me started on the two stars who went from enemies-to-lovers-to-enemies in TVD sdfsfgs THE ANGST.

“She was not fighting for love. She was protecting her own, everyone else’s be damned.”

THIS QUEEN. Did I believe it to be possible for Juliette to be even more of a queen than she already was? No. Did it happen anyways? HELL YES. All the pain she had to go through, making Roma believe that she had actually killed Marshall and subjecting herself to his hatred * sobbing * And it was all to protect him and the city. And then also having to deal with that bastard Tyler along with her own family and people having not so much faith in her ugh. Juliette hiding away any signs of weakness because people were always watching was so heartbreaking. She couldn’t give her people any more reason to doubt her then they already do. Kathleen being the only one she could be herself with, always there for her🥺

You know that moment when you have so much to say that you don’t know how to write it all out? That’s me right now. Just know if you loved Juliette before, you will definitely love her even more now.

“And maybe he was a coward. He was a coward who wouldn’t stop loving a wicked thing.”

ROMA, MY LOVE. Oh my god, he’s such a cinnamon roll that must be protected at all costs. The hatred and love he felt towards Juliette hurt my soul. Even after seeing Juliette “kill” Marshall, a small part of him believed that there was more to it AND HOW RIGHT THAT FEELING WAS. Of course, Juliette tried as hard as ever to extinguish that feeling but still sdfdgsgds THE ANGST BETWEEN THE TWO.

“Only he knew if he screamed I hate you, what he really meant was I love you. I still love you so much that I hate you for it.”

Enemies-to-lovers-to-enemies at its peak😩
The first book’s romance wasn’t a really big focus BUT HERE?? God, the tension was literally killing me. So many times my heart stopped because of these two😭 The two heirs of rival gangs who dared to love one another ❤

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“And if you are gunned down because you want to fight a war that doesn’t belong to you, I will never forgive this city. I will tear it down to pieces, and you will be to blame!

When the ship is in a heated argument and then one of them breaks and yells “because I love you!” sdfsfgsgs MY HEART I LOVED THIS SCENE SO MUCH IT WAS EVERYTHING I WANTED. (view spoiler)[The only crime was that IT TOOK SO LONG for the confession😭 like the last 70 pages?? that is just too cruel (hide spoiler)]

The amount of pain I was in during this whole book like not only did I have suffer watching Roma and Juliette BUT ALSO BENEDIKT WAS SO BROKEN IT HURT. Believing Marshall to be dead completely destroyed him and the whole time throughout I was just screaming “he’s alive Benedikt, he’s alive!!” That was honestly just true torture knowing Marshall was alive. Benedikt being so reckless about his life like no Ben what are you doing😭

And meanwhile, there’s Marshall — AKA MY PRECIOUS BEAN — who missed everyone, but of course Ben the most🥺 The two being apart pained me so much, like why can’t everyone just be happy?? Is that too much to ask for??
Stan BenMars forever ❤

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Also let it be remembered that Benedikt is and forever will be the only sensible one of the whole group. (view spoiler)[He literally stopped each and everyone of them (in terms of Roma, Juliette, and Marshall) from trying to kill themselves please he really got sick of the self-sacrificing😭 (hide spoiler)]

“Keep fighting for love. It is worth it.”

ALSO LET ME JUST SCREAM ABOUT JULIETTE AND MARSHALL’S FRIENDSHIP. It was so beautiful, sweet, and just everything omg I loved it so so so much. Their banter was like one between siblings and the way my heart was about to burst😭 IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL. Literally all the relationships between the characters were so so amazing, I can’t choose a favourite it’s impossible.

“And yet wasn’t that the root of all hatred? Wasn’t that what made it so vicious? There was never a reason. Never a good one. Never a fair one.”

Kathleen Lang, please marry me. She’s literally such a genuine and kind-hearted person just how?? Such a morally good character and the development she went through by the end of this book???🥺 I was actually about to cry. Also, Juliette and her just have the most wholesome friendship ever, there was moment between them that made me so emotional, get a friend like Kathleen😭

Also this is totally off-topic but I’m WHEEZING at how I said at the end of my These Violent Delights review how my loyalty will forever lie with the Scarlet Gang… HAHA no the Scarlet Gang can go to hell 🙂
Correction: My loyalty forever lies with Roma and Juliette ❤ They are true leaders.

↓ MAJOR SPOILERS FOR OVE IN THIS SECTION ↓

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“Keep fighting for love. Juliette had wanted to be selfish, had wanted to run. But this was their love⁠—violent and bloody. This city was their love. They couldn’t deny their upbringings as the heirs of Shanghai, as two pieces of a throne. What was left of their love if they rejected that? How could they live with themselves, look at each other, knowing they had been presented a choice and gone against who they were at the core.”

I legit can’t even write their names without tears blurring my vision. LIKE I’M ACTUALLY STRUGGLING WRITING THIS RIGHT NOW TRYING TO SEE. It’s so heartbreaking my heart physically hurts. All they wanted was to live happy, alone and free from the blood feud ohmygod AND THEY EVEN HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO RUN AWAY, but oh Roma and Juliette were too noble for their own good and I both love and hate them for that. They just wanted to love each other freely. They just wanted peace, and they couldn’t even have that. I’M SOBBING. They gave up their lives for the city that caused them so much pain. PLEASE HOW ARE ROMA AND JULIETTE SO GOOD??

And like obviously it shouldn’t have been a surprise they were going to die considering it was a retelling of R&J. Like even the foreshadowing made it obvious BUT I STILL FOOLISHLY HOPED CHLOE WOULD SPARE OUR HEARTS. It wouldn’t have been an accurate retelling if she hadn’t followed through BUT STILL😭😭 It pains me so so much and I just want to crawl into a hole and die because those two so deserved all the happiness in this world.

I WANTED BENMARS AND ROMAJULIETTE TO LIVE NEXT TO EACH OTHER, HAVE KIDS, AND GROW OLD TOGETHER HAPPY THIS ISN’T FAIR, THIS PAIN IS ILLEGAL. I love that Roma and Juliette got to at least die together holding hands and knowing that both of their cousins were dead at least but omg I will never recover from this. And the gangs were disbanded because of their deaths so at least that’s something😭

They were only married for one day before they died * sobbing * Chloe you’re too cruel.

“In this life they had been born enemies. In this life they had blood for miles between them, wide enough to run a river, deep enough to forge a valley. In the next, maybe there would be peace.”

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This review was a chaotic mess, so you can tell just how much this book destroyed me. It’s been months since a book made me feel this way and I don’t know if I should be thanking or cursing Chloe. Either way, STAN THIS QUEEN FOR MAKING ME FEEL LIKE THIS. I will forever remember each of these lovable characters and absolutely can’t wait for Foul Lady Fortune which hopefully won’t break me as much as OVE did. lies, the masochist in me hopes for that

Now, time to go through the stages of grief… except in this case, I’ll never get to the 5th✌

Thank you Simon & Schuster Canada for sending me an ARC in exchange for an honest review! All quotes in this review are subject to change upon release date.

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These Violent Delights: ★★★★

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Words of Radiance (The Stormlight Archive, #2) by Brandon Sanderson | Review

Words of Radiance, Book Two of the Stormlight Archive, continues the immersive fantasy epic that The Way of Kings began.

Expected by his enemies to die the miserable death of a military slave, Kaladin survived to be given command of the royal bodyguards, a controversial first for a low-status “darkeyes.” Now he must protect the king and Dalinar from every common peril as well as the distinctly uncommon threat of the Assassin, all while secretly struggling to master remarkable new powers that are somehow linked to his honorspren, Syl.

The Assassin, Szeth, is active again, murdering rulers all over the world of Roshar, using his baffling powers to thwart every bodyguard and elude all pursuers. Among his prime targets is Highprince Dalinar, widely considered the power behind the Alethi throne. His leading role in the war would seem reason enough, but the Assassin’s master has much deeper motives.

Brilliant but troubled Shallan strives along a parallel path. Despite being broken in ways she refuses to acknowledge, she bears a terrible burden: to somehow prevent the return of the legendary Voidbringers and the civilization-ending Desolation that will follow. The secrets she needs can be found at the Shattered Plains, but just arriving there proves more difficult than she could have imagined.

Meanwhile, at the heart of the Shattered Plains, the Parshendi are making an epochal decision. Hard pressed by years of Alethi attacks, their numbers ever shrinking, they are convinced by their war leader, Eshonai, to risk everything on a desperate gamble with the very supernatural forces they once fled. The possible consequences for Parshendi and humans alike, indeed, for Roshar itself, are as dangerous as they are incalculable.

Rating: 5 out of 5.


Another masterpiece by the King of High Fantasy😌


I finished this faster than I did for The Way of Kings and I didn’t even think that was possible. So me finishing this 1087 page book in 2 days should definitely tell you something about my love for Words of Radiance.

“All stories told have been told before. We tell them to ourselves, as did all men who ever were. And all men who ever will be. The only things new are the names.”

While The Way of Kings was basically Kaladin’s book, Words of Radiance was most certainly Shallan’s and I also didn’t even think it was possible to love her more than I already do, but it was.

Reading about Shallan’s past and the secrets she’s kept—omg it’s all so suffocating. In WoR, we see the lies Shallan tells to herself and others… these lies she will eventually have to confront if she has any hope in moving forward.

There’s so much darkness in Shallan’s life and seeing how broken she is, yet still being able to smile so brightly and find some happiness… I’m sorry, can you hear my heart breaking?? Shallan, my beautiful broken girl, I love you.😭 Please don’t lock away all this pain and let it consume you.

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🛑minor spoilers below🛑

“I seek the truth,” Shallan said. “Wherever it may be, whoever may hold it. That’s who I am.”

Okay, but Shallan playing spy and infiltrating the Ghostbloods was something I never knew I needed in my life.🥺

Is it weird to say that I actually really love like the Ghostbloods?? Like they’re pretty cool. I actually think I have a villain crush on Mraize although, is he really a villain? Their motives are still not clear and they don’t seem to be really that evil so not a villain in my eyes yet. Honestly, majority of the antagonists here aren’t really evil, it’s not black and white, it’s grey. For the most part their goals are understandable, it’s just the way they go about it being quite concerning. It’s more that they lack morality, but anyways I love how Sanderson does this and while I still do hate some of these people, I can understand some of the actions they take.

“The truth destroys more people than it saves.”

I’m literally OBSESSED with the Ghostbloods. It’s really concerning??? I pray for more of them. I NEED more of them. One of the higlights of this book was Shallan’s interactions with the Ghostbloods and omg I loved that. Mraize was said to be rarely impressed by anything but was impressed by what Shallan could do??🥺 Curse my love for this group.

I hate Sanderson for putting a thought into my head, when I know it’s highly unlikely that it’ll happen sobs I can’t stop imagining how amazing it would be if Shallan actually joined the Ghostbloods and found her own Bridge Four?? I barely know anything about these people—literally at the most only 100 pages out of 1087 did these guys appear—and their motives, but I just find them so cool😭 This super mysterious organization that is also very protective of one another and Also, even their group name sounds epic?? The ✨Ghostbloods✨

Anyways, I’d love it if something like Shallan joining their ranks were to magically happen, but I know it won’t 😦 wow, this really became a Ghostblood fangirling session

“What separates the heroes from the villains? One speech in the night.”

Surprisingly, Dalinar actually really annoyed me in this. I understood the situation he was in and the reasons behind some things, but at the same time it pissed me off the way he’d ignore and treat Kaladin’s claims of a certain bastard.

“I believe an apology is due.”

↪ THAT will forever be one of my favourite scenes omg. if you know, you know👀

“That was why he’d come back. It was about Tien, it was about Dalinar, and it was about what was right—but most of all, it was about protecting people. This was the man he wanted to be.”

Kaladin is as amazing and heartbreaking as ever. Even after saving Bridge Four, he is still not at peace with everything that’s happened to him and that’s definitely understandable sobs There’s still a deep burning hatred and vengeance floating in his mind totally don’t blame him for having I’m honestly surprised at the amount of restraint he had in certain situations… I could never.

Kaladin’s character development is spectacular and I can so tell that this is only the beginning of it. He still suffers with depression and trauma from these last few years and throughout the book, he goes through so many challenges…it’s amazing. He makes mistakes, but he learns. His growth in WoR is one of my favourite parts here and omg his interactions with Shallan and Adolin were golden.

“He saw it in her eyes. The anguish, the frustration. The terrible nothing that clawed inside and sought to smother her. She knew. It was there, inside. She had been broken.

Then she smiled. Oh, storms. She smiled anyway.

It was the single most beautiful thing he’d seen in his entire life.”

The chasm scene was so, so precious. I actually started crying, my heartt-

“Kaladin frowned. “Wait. Are you wearing cologne? In prison?”

“Well, there was no need to be barbaric, just because I was incarcerated.”

“Storms, you’re spoiled,” Kaladin said, smiling.

“I’m refined, you insolent farmer,” Adolin said. Then he grinned. “Besides, I’ll have you know that I had to use cold water for my baths while here.”

“Poor boy.”

Then the prison scene ohmygod my heart was so happy😭 I love Adolin and Kaladin’s growing friendship so much. And that one scene where they fought together omg sdfgdfdgds it was amazing

“Honor is dead.”

Speaking of Adolin, that brings me to my OTP—Shallan and Adolin.🥺 Look at these two and tell me they aren’t just one of the most adorable ships ever created???

I was living for their scenes. Like I literally had this ridiculous, goofy smile on my face every time those two interacted with each other. And the amount of times I reread those scenes… oh god why are they so cute??

Adolin believing that Shallan had come to the fighting grounds to watch him train, but being totally wrong and looking like a fool in front of Kaladin??? Perfection.

Shallan asking the most random questions—one of them being how do the Shardbearers, specifically Adolin, use the bathroom in their Shardbearers in the middle of long battles?? Adolin’s response omg I was wheezing.😭🤚

And then there was Adolin’s shocked face when Shallan kissed his cheek🥺 (Alethi are more reserved when it comes to showing affection bahaha) SO CUTE, I CAN’T. I’m so hyped for their future scenes omg and now I’m terrified that Sanderson will do something to them sobs please, no.

ALSO WIT OMG WIT, I LOVE YOU. Dare I say that he’s my favourite character despite his minimal appearances??? His scenes are always so good omg one of my favourites:

Kaladin prepared to swing up into the seat beside the carriage driver, then stopped.
“You!” he said, pointing at the driver.
“Me!” the King’s Wit replied from where he sat holding the reins.



Adolin climbed out to await her, straightening his jacket, polishing the buttons on one sleeve. He glanced up towards the driver’s seat, then started.
“You!” Adolin exclaimed.
“Me!” Wit replied. He swung down from the top of the carriage and performed a flowery bow.



She suddenly started, eyes widening. She pointed at Wit with her freehand.
“You!” Shallan exclaimed.
“Yes, yes. People certainly are very good at identifying me today. Perhaps I need to wear—”

I can’t stop laughing ohmygod why is Wit so amazing?? I NEED MORE WIT.

“Try not to flirt with the girl,” Wit whispered. “Young Adolin seems to be growing possessive. Or…what am I saying? Flirt with the girl, Kaladin. It might make the prince’s eyes bulge.”

I’d say Wit “please marry me” but I’m sure if I was in his presence for even 5 seconds, I’d want to kill him so I’ll just stay over here and laugh at him making fun of the others😌

Anyways, it seems that even though I was preparing to love this, there was still so much I wasn’t expecting like falling in love with the Ghostbloods But anyways, I’m officially obsessed with this seriesand the Ghostbloods and this obsession scares me because I know once I catch up to the series, I’m going to have one of the worst book hangovers ever.

ahh I can’t wait for Oathbringer to destroy me and my poor heart✌

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Reviews:
The Way of Kings:: ★★★★★
Words of Radiance: ★★★★★

Greek Mythology Book Tag (And I’m back!!)

***(Fanart of Percy used above is by Space Dementia)


Bonjour my fellow bookworms!✨ I know that I disappeared out of the blue for quite awhile but I’m back now after a long break! And to start off, I’m finally doing one of my tags hehe

Yes I know how ridiculously late this is, but I mean better late than never…? * nervous laughter * Maybe I’ll finally be able to catch up with all my other tags doubtful hopefully. And what better time to do this then 2 days after Percy’s birthday?🔱

Anyways, sorry for being so late and thank you May @ Dreamer of Books and Coffee for tagging me!! Truly honoured and I had so much fun putting in my answers😌 and now i feel like rereading pjo omg

Now on to the tag!


Oh yes, the cursed question bookworms fear—the “favourite book.” Like how can you even choose just one book??? The day I’m able to is the day hell freezes over, but until then I’m going to choose one of my favs of this year and that’s House of Earth and Blood. So many of my friends were telling me that I’d love HOEAB and that’s just what happened.🥰

Once upon a time, I would’ve right away said Clockwork Princess, but now… oh now The Burning God easily steals the spot. If you know, you know😭😭 That ending gave me all the feels, more specifically it destroyed what was left of my heart and even months later I still haven’t recovered. I want to say that I’d sob to my heart’s content, but I’ll never be okay. And it’s all thanks to Rebecca Kuang😘

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What automatically came to mind was The Box in the Woods aka the 4th book in the Truly Devious series. Definitely the most creepiest out of the books published so far in that series😰 Imagine going camping only to find dead bodies all around and soon after be the target of the killer-

Tara Spruit Art — Adolin and Shallan as the Lovers card for my...

OMG LITERALLY I SCREAMED WHEN I SAW THIS BECAUSE I AUTOMATICALLY KNEW OF THE PERFECT COUPLE. First of all though, there are way too many cute fictional couples to pick and a long time ago I would’ve definitely struggled. However, recently I’ve found a new OTP that I’d die for🥺 Adolin and Shallan are just so adorable and precious. Like that fanart above?? How does that not scream cute?? Looking at them makes me want to cry because I just love them so so much. Oh, and these two characters are from The Stormlight Archives, so this is another reminder to ADD THIS SERIES TO YOUR TBR.

Uh oh… not me putting another Sanderson book-

Okay but seriously, Sanderson really does have the best worldbuilding I’ve ever seen in any other book. His best yet (imo) is once again in The Stormlight Archives. It’s really just beyond amazing, it always just blows my mind away like how does this guy do it??

This is very cruel. I’ve honestly contemplated creating a shelf on Goodreads for gorgeous covers because omg a lot of them are just so beautiful I can’t stop staring🥺🥺 One of my favourite covers this year is the one for Chain of Iron. Lucie being on the cover made me so happy and she’s so beautiful it hurts🤧 I’M SO EXCITED FOR THE CHAIN OF THORNS COVER REVEAL🔥🔥 * manifesting James Herondale on the cover *

R.F. Kuang's Epic Poppy War Series Is Headed to Television | Tor.com

AHAHAHAHA * laughs in pain * there’s no doubt about it that the whole The Poppy War trilogy is literally the most violent series I have ever read in my entire life and I don’t think that’s going to change any time soon💀 I love it so much but oh the pain I went through reading the series. Thinking about it now makes me want to curl up and die😭

The one and only Jude Duarte aka the love of my life from The Folk of the Air trilogy🥺💞 Of course she’d be one of my favourite femme fatales mehehe her boldness and cunning ways – I love her so much <33

Skyward : Sanderson, Brandon: Amazon.ca: Books

There have been so many books with such beautiful messages to the point where I’d be tearing up, especially when seeing the main character follow that message🥺 Most recently Skyward is what’s done that to me. It’s human nature to care about what others say about you to the point where even you start to believe them. And seeing the message to trust in what you think about yourself more than what others say was just ❤ because in the end, we know ourselves better than anyone else in the world.

Link to my review ~ Skyward Review

Another cruel one😭😭 I’m going with not one–but TWO scorching hot characters and that is my two loves the James Herondale and Cordelia Carstairs from The Last Hours series. I love them with my entire being AND NEED TO SEE THEIR HEA OR ELSE🔪 I could literally stare at this piece of fanart all day. Stan Jordelia forever🔥

Hana Khan Carries On was a totally relatable story and probably the most relatable up to date for me. The main character Hana is Muslim (like me), lives in Canada (like me), and has to deal with Islamophobia (also like me). It’s nice reading about a character who tries to fight back against Islamophobia but also face reality that it can’t be easily fixed just like in the real world here.

10 Iconic Shadowhunters Locations - Riveted

So you see, on one hand there are soooo many places I’d die to live in😍 but on the other… I’d quite literally die if I lived in any of those places as most of them would be in set in deadly fantasy worlds😂 But if I had to choose, 100% say the Shadowhunter world (specifically in London, England) BECAUSE UM JEM CARSTAIRS?? To be able to meet Jem face to face would be a dream come true🥺🥺

The Iron Sword (The Iron Fey: Evenfall, #2)

TOO MANY. #1 on that list is most definitely Chain of Thorns along with my 2nd being House of Sky and Breath buut since both haven’t had their covers revealed yet, I’m going to go with one of my most anticipated 2022 releases that does have a cover and The Iron Sword it is! This is a spin-off series to one of my all-time favourite series in the world–The Iron Fey–and this book here is said to be in the POV of the love of my life AND first book boyfriend Ash!! I’m so so excited to read this and that cover so fits Ash, just gorgeous💙

Lacey @ Starlit Shelves

Amanda @ Bookish Brews

I’m All Booked Up

Lyra @ Defiantly Yours

Maddie @ Inking & Thinking

Birdie @ Birdie’s booktopia

Rania @ Rania’s Rambling Reads

Ritz @ Living, Loving and Reading

Susana @Susana Loves Books

Feel free to ignore this if you’ve already done this tag or are too busy!! hehe and if anyone else wants to do this tag, I’d love to see your answers!

The Immortal Game // Blog Tour & International Giveaway!! (& i have come back from the dead)

Bonjour! Yes, I’m still alive after having disappeared for almost a month. ✨Life happened✨ but I’m back now and here to host a blog tour stop for this amazing Greek Mythology YA fantasy novel, The Immortal Game by Talia Rothschild & A. C. Harvey.

Thank you so much Xpresso Book Tours for sending me a copy via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review! Now for the tour😌

Title: The Immortal Game
Authors: Talia Rothschild & A.C. Harvey
Published by: Swoon Reads
Publication date: May 25th 2021
Genres: Fantasy, Young Adult


𝓢𝔂𝓷𝓸𝓹𝓼𝓲𝓼:

An exiled goddess goes on a quest to clear her name and save Mount Olympus in Talia Rothschild & A. C. Harvey’s action-packed young adult debut, The Immortal Game!

Galene, daughter of Poseidon, desperately wants to earn her place among the gods. But when a violent attack leaves Mount Olympus in chaos and ruins, she is accused of the crime. Banished from Olympus, Galene sets out to prove her innocence and discovers a more deadly plot—one that threatens even the oldest of Immortals.

Fortunately, she has allies who willingly join her in exile:

A lifelong friend who commands the wind.
A defiant warrior with deadly skill.
A fire-wielder with a hero’s heart.
A mastermind who plays life like a game.

All-out war is knocking at the gates. Galene and her friends are the only ones who can tip the scales toward justice, but their choices could save Olympus from total annihilation, or be the doom of them all.

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𝓡𝓮𝓿𝓲𝓮𝔀:

Rating: 4.5 out of 5.

My heart is filled with so much love and happiness for Kostas and Galene🥺

Also, I never imagined that I’d actually like the Olympians??? I shan’t ever get tired of Greek Mythology.

I am the daughter of Poseidon, God of Seas.
I will save my friends. I will clear my name.
I will tame the sea.

Here lies Mount Olympus—home of the Greek Gods where they live under rule of the Olympians in peace. Not all of the gods are immortal, though. Each of them must prove their worth to be able to gain immortality, this being done by taking the Immortality Trial. Pass and you are granted immortality—fail, and you must wait another 10 years before taking the test again.

Galene, daughter of Poseidon, has prepared all her life to prove her worth and loyalty, especially after the actions of her brother, Chrysander, years before. However, unfortunate incidents occur eventually leading up to a vicious attack on Mount Olympus that has everyone believing Galene to be the perpetrator. With this, comes her exile from Olympus and the journey amongst friends to uncover the truth and prove Galene’s innocence.

“I am worthy of being a deity.”

The story followed four POVs and I really liked how distinct their personalities were. Galene is my favourite of the four like she’s the quiet type of strong and her character was done spectacularly. And while at times her loyalty towards certain beings seemed foolish, I had to admire it a lot. Even being banished from Mount Olympus, she still felt loyal to the very gods who exiled her. Just wow. I would despise them and look forward to revenge. now what does that say about me?

Also, she’s the daughter of Poseidon??? One of my favourite Olympians ahh so how could I not love her?? Apollo will forever remain my #1 favourite

“Because I love you, and someone needed to stand up for you.”

Iyana, daughter of Zeus, cares so much for her friends, I adore her loyalty and love for Galene like its’ seriously just so sweet. Her stubbornness too when she’d be facing gods she knows are way stronger her like wow I could never. The way she feels like she’s useless, especially with the added pressure of being Zeus’s daughter yet not having much of his powers… its so sad watching her despair over this. There were moments where she’s annoy me but overall her character development was done really well.

Braxtos, the son of Apollo, was probably my least favourite of the gang. He annoyed me at times, but he also had his admirable moments. There wasn’t really anything that stood out about him. He was just there for me, I guess.

“Everything is a game.”

Kostas, the son of Hermes, is just perfect. First, I mean he’s the God of Games, so how cool is that??? And he’s always trying to lift the mood up when everyone’s acting all depressed, it’s so sweet omg. Also, the way Kostas is literally the only reasonable god among the group—I guess that’s what happens when you can read others’ emotions👀

Okay but Kostas and Galene?? my hearttt they’re so adorable omg I adore those two; I was literally shipping them so hard throughout the story. THEY’RE SO CUTE. The wholesome interactions and Kostas flirting with Galene- * screaming * * extreme fangirling * I’m in love.

So sad that this is a standalone because I won’t be seeing anymore sweet moments between the two 😭 There will never be enough Kostene (?) me attempting at a ship name scenes.

The other bond I loved here was the one between Iyana and Galene omg their friendship was so heartwarming ahhh and the one between Kostas and Braxtos?? * chef’s kiss * Kostas punching Braxtos will forever remain one of my favourite scenes. True friendship indeed.😌

I really should’ve been able to guess who the culprit was behind framing Galene for the incident at Mount Olympus but my brain really doesn’t like to work when the answer is so obvious smh.

Honestly, I still can’t believe the fatherly love I saw from some of the Olympians, especially from both Poseidon and Zeus towards their children like??? I mean, they were still jerks of course, but they were also actually so sweet🥺 Really suspicious if you ask me. I’m not used to this kindness hmmm. But I do really love them ❤

Again, I wish this wasn’t a standalone because I want more of these characters sobs but The Immortal Games had a beautiful and heartwarming conclusion that definitely has me satisfied. The only reason this didn’t get 5 stars was because it took awhile to get really engaged with the story and there were some scenes that dragged on a little, but other than that, I loved it!

And now I feel like rereading the Percy Jackson series…

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Buddy read with my amazing friend Alex @ The Scribe Owl !!

(All quotes in this review are subject to change upon release date)



Author Bio:

Talia Rothschild, Italian American, is passionate about stories in many forms—music, dance, photography, film and, of course, great novels. She believes in thick hot chocolate and creamer in your tea. When she’s not happily writing, she’s mothering the sweetest baby girl and making memories with her husband. Her debut book The Immortal Game, coauthored with A. C. Harvey, hits the shelves May 2021.

Ashleigh Harvey is teaching high school physics and bringing her writing dreams to life. English-born and world-traveled, she loves filling her life with new adventures, such as visiting a new country or exploring the Wild West with her husband. She also finds escape in movies, music, literature, and yearly comic conventions. The Immortal Game is her debut novel, created alongside Talia Rothschild, her close friend.


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House of Earth and Blood (Crescent City, #1) by Sarah J. Maas | Review – I fell in loveee

Bryce Quinlan had the perfect life—working hard all day and partying all night—until a demon murdered her closest friends, leaving her bereft, wounded, and alone. When the accused is behind bars but the crimes start up again, Bryce finds herself at the heart of the investigation. She’ll do whatever it takes to avenge their deaths.

Hunt Athalar is a notorious Fallen angel, now enslaved to the Archangels he once attempted to overthrow. His brutal skills and incredible strength have been set to one purpose—to assassinate his boss’s enemies, no questions asked. But with a demon wreaking havoc in the city, he’s offered an irresistible deal: help Bryce find the murderer, and his freedom will be within reach.

As Bryce and Hunt dig deep into Crescent City’s underbelly, they discover a dark power that threatens everything and everyone they hold dear, and they find, in each other, a blazing passion—one that could set them both free, if they’d only let it.

With unforgettable characters, sizzling romance, and page-turning suspense, this richly inventive new fantasy series by #1 New York Times bestselling author Sarah J. Maas delves into the heartache of loss, the price of freedom—and the power of love.

Rating: 5 out of 5.

SJM keeps breaking my heart over and over again and I keep coming back every. single. time.

I have a very toxic relationship with her books.


But I will never stop coming back to them, because stopping is like telling me to stop breathing. Does that sound dramatic? Because I’m dead serious. The day I stop reading Sarah’s books is when you know my angelic spirit has fallen and I’ve been possessed by one of those devils. cough you know who you are cough

And every time I finish one of her books, I feel like I’m overflowing with love. There’s so much happiness, heartbreak, and then excruciating pain as I realize that I have to wait a millennium for the next book. Oh, and the slump that comes afterwards💀

Curse all of you who told me to read this right now. Each and every one of you are devils.



I know some people found the beginning to be slow, but I actually didn’t have any problems with it. I found it perfect, learning about the world and the characters was beautiful. I wasn’t bored for one second and it literally makes me so happy because I was scared this wouldn’t meet my expectations. Shame on me for doubting this queen.

And don’t even get me started on the ending of this masterpiece. I did not see any of that coming (view spoiler)[except I had a feeling Bryce would have some special power and she did, which I totally don’t mind because SHE MADE THE DROP AND IS STRONGER THAN THE AUTUMN KING AHAHAHAHA (hide spoiler)] I was literally sobbing so much. What is it with the ending always destroying me??? It was so beautiful and heartbreaking, I swear.

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“That’s the point of it, Bryce. Of life. To live, to love, knowing that it might all vanish tomorrow. It makes everything that much more precious.”

I’ve loved every one of SJM’s female protagonists, but ohmygod Bryce Quinlan totally beats them all. She literally leaves me in awe. The way she loves so much, and would live life to its fullest—that is until the death of her friends, Danika Fendyr and The Pack of Devilssobbing From there, she’s an empty shell of her former self.

And the thing is that we barely knew Danika and the others we were even warned smh yet it was still heartbreaking when they were murdered and watching Bryce in so much pain just broke me. Leave it to Sarah to be able to destroy my soul for characters that only appeared in the first 100 pages. Danika and Bryce’s friendship was so beautiful I could cry for eternity and still never recover from what happened. Bryce, my queen.🥺

Even heartbroken, she tried so hard to make it seem like she’s okay so that those around her wouldn’t worry, putting on the image of the classic party girl who doesn’t give a care in the world, meanwhile she’s slowly breaking more and more on the inside—

Okay, but the way Bryce is bold enough to snap selfies right in front of the Archangel, Sandriel, and can literally make the Umbra Mortis feel like he’s three inches tall is actually just too good.

The Umbra Mortis looked pissed, his arms crossed and wings flaring slightly, but Bryce just breezed past him without so much as a glance. Causing Athalar to slowly turn, arms slackening at his sides, as if such a thing had never happened in his long, miserable life.

I seriously could go on forever with the amount of times Hunt was so pissed by Bryce, especially in the beginning ahaha omg.

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“Bryce was a ghost for a long while, Hunt. She pretended she wasn’t, but she was​.” The helicopter finally pulled into the air. “You brought her back to life.”

From the moment Hunt Athalar looked Bryce right in the eye and told her to “calm the fuck down,” I knew I’d love him. I mean, who wouldn’t???

I can definitely see similarities between Hunt and all of Sarah’s other male love interests but you know what? Hunt is a thousand times better than Rowan and Rhysand. I love the way he challenges Bryce and tries to care for her, while at the same time not being super overprotective cough unlike some people, although there is still the 2nd book for him to act like that hopefully not He’s the typical tall, dark and brooding guy who has a tragic backstory—just like Rowan (altho he has white hair but you get what I mean) and Rhysand, yet somehow I actually love him way more than both.

Bryce’s relationship with Hunt is most definitely superior to all of Sarah’s other series’ relationships involving the main characters. Like the banter?? The openness of it?? The heartwarming scenes??? Perfection. I could literally compile all of their convos into a whole book and never get tired of reading them. Their interactions were pure gold.

“You’re my friend. Who watches trashy TV with me and puts up with my shit. You’re the person I don’t need to explain myself to—not when it matters. You see everything I am, and you don’t run away from it.”

Also, just… the shower scene sobbing it was so beautiful and heartbreaking and that’s all I need to say.

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“The only thing I want to be called right now is your brother.” He added softly, “If you’ll have me.”

I literally love almost every character in this book, but of all of them, Ruhn Danaan is just everything. He’s such a cinnamon roll. So sweet and trying so hard to be there for Bryce after their falling out years before. That scene at the end had me crying so much. I love you, Ruhn.

Okay, but even though Ruhn is everything, I would marry Declan Emmet. Declan is my favourite i know, how could i possibly have chosen a favourite?? He’s who I’ve fallen in love with. Why you ask? This guy is a computer geek, master hacker, tech god (thinking abt a certain scene iykyk) and I love that. Plus he’s charming, gorgeous and super sweet?? I’ve fallen so hard for Declan, it’s not even funny🤚

Also being with Declan would mean I could be friends with Ruhn and Flynn🥺 I love the trio omg

Seriously though, can I have a Declan?? I’ve found a new book boyfriend omg😭 Oh also I want Tharion, too. Knowing that there’s going to be 200% more Tharion in CC2 makes my heart happy sdfsfs there can never be enough Tharion.

“Bryce, this is Tharion Ketos.” She stepped closer to the concrete edge of the quay. “An old friend.”

Tharion grinned at Hunt again. “Not as old as you.”

Bryce gave the male a half smile. “Nice to meet you.”

Tharion’s light brown eyes glittered. “The pleasure, Bryce, is all mine.”

Tharion is such a a flirt and I love it. I need more Tharion Ketos <33

AND THEN AIDAS. omg do you know how much it killed me after seeing how much the fandom loved him and then me finding out that he only appears once??? what. the. hell. So not fair😭 yet with that one appearance, I already love him. Not as much as Tharion, Ruhn, and Declan of course, but still ahhh he’s such an interesting demon kitty. And I love demon kitties.

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🛑MAJOR SPOILERS BELOW🛑

I actually thought something was wrong with me when I had a hundred pages left, and I still hadn’t cried at all . Like there were some emotional scenes and I got teary-eyed, but no actual sob-fest. And especially after hearing from literally everyone I know that CC destroyed them, I was so confused?? nervous laughter little did I know that those last hundred pages would indeed break me.

“We were supposed to do this together. We were supposed to live out our lives together”

Danika being there for Bryce while she made the Drop ohmygod I was sobbing. The “Light it up” scene—I swear I wanted to die. And it was also 2am in the morning when I was reading this sooo💀

Also I’ll never forget how shocked everyone, but especially Sandriel, was when Bryce just casually vacuumed up the ashes of Micah. Best scene by far. Along with Hunt ripping off Sandriel’s head, of course.😌

Then Lele sacrificing herself in order to give Bryce enough time to be able to kill Micah- THAT ONE LINE. I SEE WHAT YOU DID SARAH😭😭 “My friends are with me and I am not afraidthe exact line is I will not be afraid sdfdsfs but close enough sobs Sam

Okay and finding out that Bryce was so close to jumping at one point after Danika’s death ohmygod that hurt so much and Juniper being there for Bryce before she did–I can’t deal with all of that😭

I keep saying certain scenes are my favourite BUT THIS SERIOUSLY IS MY FAVOURITE TOO. Declan, aka the love of my life, hacking into all the cameras & calls and livestreaming everything was amazing omg. Micah being exposed was the best part–or wait, everyone hearing Ember Quinlan act all smug towards the Autumn King, while he raged might’ve been the best. hmmm the struggles ahhh everything was perfect ohmygod I love you Declan.

OMG and the part where Bryce wrote back to Connor after having the thread saved for 2 years.😭😭 And Bryce seeing the pack towards the end omg omg I’m going to start crying again.

Bryce’s eyes stung as she smiled softly, then read through Connor’s last words to her.

“Message me when you’re home safe.”

Bryce began typing. The answer it had taken her two years, nearly to the day, to write.

“I’m home.”

There was one scene where I probably shouldn’t have been laughing and instead crying, but I couldn’t help it. Hunt trying to bring Bryce back to life and what he said-

“I heard what you said.” Pump, pump, pump went his powerful arms. “What you waited to admit until I was almost dead, you fucking coward.” His lightening surged into her, sending her body arcing off the ground as he tried to jump-start her heart. He snarled in her ear, “Now come say it to my face.”

I love these two so much ohmygod I’m not going to bother saying that I hope they’re endgame, because I know they are. There’s no way after everything that’s happened that Sarah would just ruin all of that in the next book, especially because Hunt and Bryce’s relationship is like Rowaelin and Feysand. Both accepted everything about the other and didn’t shy away from it. The only reason I could imagine that they wouldn’t be endgame is if Sarah kills off Hunt-

yea no, forget I even said that. Sarah wouldn’t dare🙂🔪🔪🔪

🛑SPOILERS HAVE ENDED🛑

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So as you can tell, Sarah has once again destroyed me beyond recognition and I honestly think I’m going to slowly wither away waiting for CC2. At least let there be a release date. PLEASE??? sobbing I’m not joking when I said I curse all of you. I’ll have my revenge one day 🙂

Now you see, usually I’m all for recommending masterpieces, but for this…hell no.

If you value your sanity, then you will not read HOEAB right now. If you value your sanity, you’ll wait until there’s at least a release date for CC2. If you value your sanity, you’ll wait until CC2 itself is released.

But if you have no self-control and/or think sanity is overrated like me, then go on ahead. I wish you all the luck in the world because you’ll soon regret that decision.

“Through love, all is possible.”

Will my love for Declan Emmet have the release date for CC2 be revealed faster???

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honorable mention: thank you krizzie, el, and mashie for listening to my screaming, fangirling, and terrible theories!! I still curse you three the most tho <33 ik, what an honor

ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕 ℍ𝕠𝕦𝕤𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝔼𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕙 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝔹𝕝𝕠𝕠𝕕? 𝕎𝕙𝕠’𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕗𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕣? 𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥’𝕤 𝕒 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕪𝕠𝕦’𝕧𝕖 𝕓𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕞𝕖𝕒𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕠 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕒 𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪 𝕝𝕠𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕚𝕞𝕖?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

Red Winter (Red Winter Trilogy, #1) by Annette Marie | Review // ft. me screaming about a very underrated series!!

Emi is the kamigakari. In a few short months, her life as a mortal will end and her new existence as the human host of a goddess will begin. Carefully hidden from those who would destroy her, she has prepared her mind, body, and soul to unite with the goddess-and not once has she doubted her chosen fate.

Shiro is a yokai, a spirit of the earth, an enemy of the goddess Emi will soon host. Mystery shrouds his every move and his ruby eyes shine with cunning she can’t match and dares not trust. But she saved his life, and until his debt is paid, he is hers to command-whether she wants him or not. On the day they meet, everything Emi believes comes undone, swept away like snow upon the winter wind. For the first time, she wants to change her fate-but how can she erase a destiny already wrought in stone? Against the power of the gods, Shiro is her only hope… and hope is all she has left.

Rating: 5 out of 5.

i never thought it was possible for me to love this more than i did the first time, but it is.

best Japanese mythology based, slow-burn, enemies-to-lovers book i’ve ever read🥺


this trilogy is so underrated and that’s totally unacceptable. it deserves all the love. Like it has almost everyone’s favourite trope, enemies-to-lovers , AND it’s based off of Japanese mythology which I’ve barely seen in the book world.

it breaks my heart seeing how only about 6.5k ppl have read this sobs it deserves more recognition, this beautiful book. (altho, my love may be a tiny bit biased since I love Japanese culture so much BUT ANYWAYS)

trust me or maybe dont, the beginning is pretty slow, but once you reach around the 20% mark (chapter 7), it gets really good. the world building also may be a little confusing with all the terms, although you get used to it throughout the story (there’s also a glossary at the back of the book).

it’s funny, i actually struggled with the beginning during my first read, yet with this reread i didn’t mind the slow start at all and loved everything. the banter between Emi and Shiro is amazing and being introduced to my bby Yumei🥺 i cant not reread the rest of the series now that i’ve read this. I need more.


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“Because you are more to me now. Because you keep secrets like a kami and I’m curious what you hide. Because you are lonely and scared and I don’t understand why. Because you trust me when you know you shouldn’t. Because I believe you when you say you will keep your word.”

Emi is the kamigakari — destined to become the kami (goddess), Amaterasu’s, human host. As the kamigakari, Emi must remain pure both physically and mentally lest she be unable to receive the kami’s power and spirit.

No impure thoughts or urges, being restricted to what she can eat (it must all be healthy), having nobody of the opposite gender even touch her, and more… ah, what a sad life. imagine not being able to eat pizza shudder the horror

The life she has feels complete to Emi… until she stumbles across something that changes everything. And with that, it all starts — she meets Shiro, a suspicious shape-shifting kitsune (a fox yokai) who seems to be more than is shown. Yokai are spirits that are closely tied to nature and walk upon the Earth — they’re also known to be monsters or demons.

But Shiro, my love, is only the most amazing, swoon-worthy, and flirty yokai I know. The way I lived for his scenes with Emi🥺 i cant-

the question is… can you trust him? what does Shiro truly want? there must be some ulterior motive, right? this journey of trust and love throughout the trilogy is so, so beautiful. even if there was no plot, i would read this all just for these three <33

Yumei, aka the Tengu is also another yokai Emi meets. He’s very cold and annoyed often by Emi and Shiro hehe but secretly he cares😏 or does he Also, he’s very very sus. He doesn’t appear as much as Shiro, but in the next two books, Yumei shall shine more and make me fall even more in love with him. I still say there should be a spin-off for Yumei🥺 im not giving up on that.

“Don’t forget me, Shiro,” she said hoarsely. “You’re not allowed to forget me.”

“You’ll forget me someday, little miko.”

“I’ll never forget you,” she told him. “I’ll remember you to my last day.”

“Do you promise?”

Her heart gave an odd little flutter. “Yes, I promise.”

why do i keep doing this to myself

ALSO, shoutout to Katsuo for being such a kind-hearted and sweet friend to Emi <33

i will never stop loving this series. and this is only the first book, so i can only imagine how amazing it’s going to to be rereading the next two which are 10000 times better. altho… i’m scared to get my heartbroken, but that’s inevitable ¯_(ツ)_/¯

so ready for some more pain love✌

(also the art i posted above are only just a few of many illustrations in this book. ahhh another reason to read this)

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Buddy re-read with demon crisis krizzie, salty sofia, your hissingness, and lucid lucy <33

𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥’𝕤 𝕒𝕟 𝕦𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕣𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕤𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕜 𝕕𝕖𝕤𝕖𝕣𝕧𝕖𝕤 𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕖 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖? 𝔸𝕟𝕪 𝕁𝕒𝕡𝕒𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕖-𝕞𝕪𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕠𝕘𝕪 𝕓𝕒𝕤𝕖𝕕 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕠𝕗?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

Chain of Iron (The Last Hours, #2) by Cassandra Clare | Review

Rating: 5 out of 5.

Tell me, what do I say? What do I say about this masterpiece?

I would change nothing. And I mean nothing. actually maybe just that bloody ending sobs

CASSIE, YOU CANNOT EXPECT ME TO WAIT 393+ DAYS FOR CHAIN OF THORNS-


No, this is true torture. She really fooled us smh this book hurt so much.

The secrets, the lies, everything was painful. I don’t like having my heart torn into pieces 😦

There are so many ways to destroy me, ah I shouldn’t have been surprised that Cassie was able to do it again — and in the most unbelievable way possible considering where I stood last book.

My queen is ruthless :’ )


(🛑There shall be SPOILERS from Chain of Gold…you have been warned.🛑)


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“When you want something very much, you are willing to accept the shadow of that thing.”

“Even if it is just a shadow.”

That line is the embodiment of p a i n. sobs

Oh Cordelia, how my love has grown for her. Imagine marrying the love of your life, but not actually marrying him, yet suffering through it with determination and not yielding to that pain. My respect 📈

And to add on to that, you know that he’s in love with someone else that isn’t you. I don’t know how she endured that, especially when James here would continue making stupid mistakes.

But of course, it’s not his fault. As we all know, it’s because of that cursed bracelet that’s making him feel that way. That bracelet that Grace gave to him — orders given to her by Tatiana Blackthorn, the true monster here.

Cordelia’s strength and kindness is so awe-inspiring. Throughout the book she continued to amaze me sdfsdfsadf I seriously love her so much — and that’s exactly why it pained me so much to see her in pain. but that was me with everyone here, so ig that’s nothing new cries

And that dangerous oath of loyalty to the mysterious power she swore herself too…ohmygodd guys I’m so shook. I’m telling you that if you guess what and who it is, you are a scary genius — but I have to say that I don’t think anyone’s going to guess it. It’s truly something none of us could’ve imagined, so be ready.

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“I believe what he means to say is that it cannot be the responsibility of one’s friends to prevent one from doing something one believes is right.”

“It is, however, the job of one’s friends to rescue one from the consequences of one’s actions when it all goes skew-whiff.”

Ahhh James Herondale, he really does give one of the best speeches known to humanity. I must say though, I did not like him in book 1 and could not possibly compare him to Will — now though, omg he’s stolen my heart and I would die for him.

It can’t be helped that the bracelet has bewitched him into ‘loving’ Grace. And watching him and Cordelia together in their fake marriage…ohmygod my heart-

I’ve been converted to Team Jordelia.le gasp I know, practically everything I said/thought in my Chain of Gold review has totally changed. Where I once was totally Team Fairstairs…ahh I must betray my fellow friends. Jamie and Cordelia is so sweet and wholesome🥺

THEY MUST BE ENDGAME OR I WILL RIOT.

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“I know what it is to be in pain, and not to be able to seek comfort from the one you love most, not to be able to share that pain with anyone you know.”

And that brings me to my cinnamon roll, Matthew Fairchild. All I want is for Matthew to be happy. He doesn’t need to be in a romantic relationship or anything — I just want him to find his happiness and be able to forgive himself. Please, Matthew. but with how Cassie’s like, I don’t believe thats going to happen sobs

The Matthew and Cordelia moments also broke my heart. They both could relate to so many things ughhh and this was where I’d be cheering for Fairstairs, but in the end, I say that it’s better off with the two being friends — not lovers.

But why does Matthew continue to destroy pieces of my soul?? The way he hides away his grief and suffering with witty and dramatic comments…and with his consumption of alcohol omggg I’m so so scared. This really isn’t going to end well.😭 He needs help and I pray that he finds that help.

My cinnamon roll needs all the love in the world.

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“I remember what it is to be hot or cold. To want things. To need things. All those things are real for me again, as nothing else has been real to me since I died–except for you.”

sdfdsfd that is so beautiful. When I say Cassie wasn’t holding back on the feels, I truly mean that. It’s like she’s setting up everything for all of it then to come crashing down on us in the last book-

WAIT, SHE PROBABLY IS DOING THAT ON PURPOSE. That monster Her plan is working sobs I’m not ready. I’m not ready. I’m not ready.

Lucie has grown so much in this book, although it pains me to see her keeping so many secrets from the others. No longer is she being kept from the action as she was before, but now her mission, along with Grace, is to bring Jesse back from the dead and give him the life he deserves.

However, while I did ship Lucie and Jesse in the Chain of Gold, my amazing friend, Sofia brought up a good point about how bland Jesse is.

And I see that now. There really isn’t anything at all that’s really amazing about him. He’s just…a ghost? He’s kind to Grace? Hmmm maybe I’ll love him more in the next book. Watching those two together was so beautiful and heartbreaking, though.🤧

But I will say this — Lucie needs no man. She’s the strong and independent girl I love ❤

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“If there was one thing she couldn’t bear, it was other people having expectations. She would always disappoint them.”

And here’s another opinion I had in CoG that’s changed now:

I LOVE Grace.

You’re probably wondering how? or maybe you weren’t blinded by rage bc of the gracelet and could see past all of it unlike me

Grace really is the victim here. Her parents were killed when she was so young and then after being sent to live with the devil Tatiana Blackthorn, she was never cared for or loved by anyone, except for Jesse and he died-

That is just so devastating, I can’t imagine how terrible that is. And look at how corrupt and vicious Tatiana is…and then just imagine living in the same household as that demon . shudder The horror.

And then when you have Cassie giving you Grace’s POV and more of her background story/secrets…oh come on, I really can’t see how one would still despise her after learning all that. The true monster who needs to die is Tatiana.

Also, I’m so shipping Kit and Grace — they’re literally perfect for each other ohmygod I seriously just had a goofy smile on my face reading their scenes. Grace is so confused with Kit’s honesty and innocence sdfsfsfs I love it. They couldn’t be more perfect for each other.

I just have to share this scene-

“You don’t seem that surprised,” Grace observed.

“On the contrary. I’ve never heard of transferring a rune between Shadowhunters—”

“No, I meant—” Grace wished she hadn’t said anything. “I only meant that you didn’t seem surprised to see me put a rune on myself.”

“Why would I be?” Christopher asked, obviously confused. “You’re a Shadowhunter. It’s what we do.”

Grace’s heart sank. Now Christopher probably thought she was completely peculiar—and for some reason, that bothered her.

(okay, i’ll stop now)

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“I am nothing like you, Thomas, because you are one of the better people I have ever known. You have a kind nature and a heart like some knight out of a legend. Brave and proud and true and strong. All of it. And all the time you have known me, I have been a terrible person.”

So, you see. We are nothing at all alike.”

SDFDSFSAD THE FEELS. STOP IT CASSIE. STOP IT.

This is exactly what I mean. She cannot stop making me feel this way.

ThomasxAlastair moments were so sweet.

AriadnexAnna moments were filled with so much longing.

JamesxCordelia moments with so much angst.

GracexKit moments being so adorable and innocent.

LuciexJesse moments…so beautiful and heartbreaking.

My heart cannot take this I-

I truly believe nothing is going to go right in Chain of Thorns . And it doesn’t help that this series is called The Last Hours nor does it help that Cassie herself said that the ending of this series is much worse than Clockwork Princess AND I THOUGHT THAT WAS HEARTBREAKINGLY PAINFUL-

laughs in ‘I don’t want to die’

But ignoring that haha i could never, I could go on and on forever with how perfect this book felt to me. The amount of TDA references in this book?!?! ohmygodd it actually just left me shook — Cassie said that this series interconnects with The Dark Artifices and I so see that now. I’m in awe. Did she really plan all of this beforehand?? She’s a witch.

I will never be able to say everything I want to in this review. cries Already I’m reaching the word limit dammit. Honestly, if you read all of this I applaud you. It truly is an honor.🥺

So yeah, I can tell that we’re all screwed and Cassie is going to be the only one laughing by the end of this.

Death is coming.

Ave atque vale

ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕 𝕒𝕟𝕪 ℂ𝕒𝕤𝕤𝕚𝕖 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕤? 𝕎𝕒𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕒 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕙𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕒𝕥 𝕗𝕚𝕣𝕤𝕥 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕤𝕠𝕠𝕟 𝕘𝕣𝕖𝕨 𝕥𝕠 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖? 𝔸𝕣𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕝𝕤𝕠 𝕕𝕪𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕗𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕚𝕟 ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕚𝕟 𝕠𝕗 𝕀𝕣𝕠𝕟?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

A ​Court of Silver Flames (A Court of Thorns and Roses, #4) by Sarah J. Maas | Review

Rating: 5 out of 5.

ohmygod I’m sobbing that was so beautiful

All hail Queen Nesta and SJM for making me love her so much

My favourite ACOTAR book by far


I don’t know what to do with myself now.

Like actually, I think I’m gonna be in a book hangover for weeks— no, months omg I cannot. This has to be the most times I’ve ever cried in a book I swear to god I’m still crying right now.

From the beginning of the book to the end…even the acknowledgments , all of it destroyed me. My heart—

This has been said many times, but I love you so much Sarah. Sarah, my queen. Sarah, my goddess. My love for SJM will never cease to exist.

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🛑Note: The first part will have NO SPOILERS, while the 2nd will definitely have SPOILERS. I’ll have a warning when it comes to that.

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“Everyone deserves happiness. The road there isn’t easy. It is long, and hard, and often travelled utterly blind. But you keep going.

Because you know the destination will be worthwhile.”

This is Nesta’s special journey. Nesta’s journey through dealing with her trauma. Struggling with the pain she’s been in and healing. Finding the ability to love herself.

I didn’t think SJM could write a better book for mental health than ACOMAF, but I believe right here, she did exactly that. There wasn’t a single scene where I didn’t feel like my heart was breaking.

This was such an emotional ride. I could actually relate to Nesta and while it isn’t as severe as her, there are times where I’d also hate myself and feel like I deserve nothing. And seeing Nesta deal with all of this — it broke me in so many ways. To have her in so much pain and think that she herself has to change in order to be “fixed”… ohmygod no I swear I cant.😭🤚

Then there was Cassian. I love how he wouldn’t give up on Nesta and even while trying to help her, he still didn’t let her get away with everything. He kept reaching out his hand throughout it all. But in the end, the only person who could heal Nesta was Nesta herself.

You can help someone as much as you want, but at the end of all that, it’s up to them to see past that darkness and find the light. To love themselves and be happy with who they are.

To heal the parts of you that hurt so much and hurt others.

im crying again dammit This book hit me so hard. I’m actually such a mess. I never thought I could love a book this much. Not surprised it was Queen SJM that did this to me.

I will never forget the impact Nesta’s story had on me. There’s no doubt that I’ll be rereading this so many times in the future. Already I feel like rereading. My god, what has she done to me sobs is this what love feels like?

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🛑SPOILER part of the review below. Do not go past this if you haven’t read ACOSF.🛑

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She would not be mastered by anything again. She was the master of herself.

I know I talked about Nesta already but seriously she’s such a queen. Cassian wasn’t the only one there for her. We’re introduced to new characters in this book and I love it. Honestly, it had to be my favourite part of her story.

Nesta’s friendship with Emerie and Gwyn was so, so, so wholesome and sweet. Each of them had their own past that haunted them and were afraid for the other to find out. But that’s exactly what made them fit so well together. That moment where they all shared their secrets with each other, realizing that the other wouldn’t be judging them…I cried so much not surprising omg it was so beautiful to see them open up.

Their love for each other was tested especially when they had to participate in The Blood Rite. I was so shook, I actually didn’t think they’d be doing it, but ohmygod that was so stressful. I was terrified SJM would destroy me again and kill Emerie or Gwyn. Thank god she took pity on our poor hearts.

Also, omg them training to be Valkyries dsfdsfgd YES YES YES. I LOVED that so much. And to see them in action during The Blood Rite against those bastards??? Perfection.but also really stressful bc my gurls🥺 ALSO THE FRIENDSHIP BRACELETS OHMYGOD I CANNOT. HEARTBREAKING AND BEAUTIFUL.

I legit hope Gwyn and Emerie play bigger roles in the next two books, especially ahem because I have some ships in mind.😏 Yes, I may be too early but I believe in EmeriexMor and AzrielxGwyn🙏

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“The first time I saw that look on your face, you were still human. Still human, and I nearly went to my knees before you.”

Tell me, what’s one of the most heartbreaking scenes you’ve ever read?

I’ll tell you mine — CHAPTER 50. That was so heart-wrenching, my heart died. My own sisters were looking at me like I was insane. But something even more heartbreaking?

CASSIAN CRYING

That completely and utterly destroyed me. I was dying on the inside. Just thinking about him crying, is making me cry. I swear to god, I literally put my heart through torture reading this.

Seeing through Cassian’s POV is the greatest gift we could’ve asked for. All the flaws and insecurities he feels, I’m in so much p a i n. I adore him even more than before. He was there for Nesta and Nesta was there for him, my heart-

“Forgiveness is not that easy.”

“Forgiveness is something we also grant ourselves. And I can talk to you until these mountains crumble around us, but if you don’t wish to be forgiven, if you don’t want to stop feeling this way…it won’t happen.”

Hello? Please stop destroying me. Please, Cas.

“You don’t need to become some impossible ideal. You don’t need to become sweet and simpering. You can give everyone that I Will Slay My Enemies look—which is my favourite look, by the way. You can keep that sharpness I like so much, that boldness and fearlessness. I don’t want you to ever lose things, to cage yourself.”

STOP. THE. PAIN. * cries * Cas, when did you become so wise and give such heart crushing speeches?? This is one of the most beautiful lines I’ve ever read. No question about it.

Also, to finally find out what was in the solstice gift Cassian wanted to give Nesta — it was A BOOK. Okay imma stop right there, I’m crying again. I cant do this.🥺😭

(And Azzy & Nesta’s friendship…sobs beautiful. HE GAVE HER A FAELIGHT FOR READING AS A SOLSTICE GIFT. PLEASE, MY HEART-)

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“That’s the key, isn’t it? To know the darkness will always remain, but how you choose to face it, handle it…that’s the important part. To not let it consume. To focus upon the good, the things that fill you with wonder.”

“The struggle with that darkness is worth it, just to see such things.”

Am I really dedicating a whole section to The House of Wind? Yes, yes I am.

I absolutely love Nesta, but my god The House of Wind is the BEST part of this book. Absolutely amazing and kind. I didn’t I could love a house so much, but here I am.

Nesta wished for a friend and the House became that friend for her. It encouraged her to do more, pushed her to try more. The House reads romance novels. I’m crying, I love the House so much. And the darkness that swirled at the bottom of the library?? I can’t believe that was the heart of the House ohmygod please I love it. The way Nesta accepted the way it was, just like the House did that for her…sdfgdsfs I’m in pain. sobs too much for my heart.

AND IT GAVE NESTA CHOCOLATE CAKE AND ROMANCE BOOKS. What’s not to love about the House??? woah wait, why is this reminding me of celaena with her love of chocolate cake and books shook

The House of Wind is e v e r y t h i n g.

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“I went into the Cauldron, too, you know. And it captured me. And yet somehow all you think of is what my trauma did to you.

(This is Nesta’s book, but I just have to say this.)

I’m guilty of this too, but I think most of us hated Elain because of how we saw her, being sweet, kind and useless…and judged her right away, forgetting that she also is still suffering going into the Cauldron and with what happened in the war against Hybern.

Just like Nesta, Elain has a different way of showing her trauma and that’s by hiding it away and making it look like she’s okay, using the image everyone thinks of her being–sweet and kind. It’s just like we all think of her and hate her for that. Everyone expects Elain to be one thing, so she acts like that BUT is that truly Elain?

So yeah, I judged her too early. (Feysand’s POV really helped with this too) I shouldn’t hate her right away because there’s still her story to be told. I’m actually excited to see that.

But even knowing all of this, I still don’t like Elain.🤷‍♀️ I understand it and everything but just something about her rubs me off the wrong way. I don’t hate her, but I don’t like her either. I have no doubt Sarah will make us love, or at the very least, like Elain next book.

Also, I seriously do not ship her with Azriel.

I believe Azriel and Gwyn would be such a beautiful pair ohmygod I’d love that so much. If the three brothers get with the three archeron sisters…no no no, please no. And I absolutely love the Azriel POV. My heart is hurting so much for Azzy🥺 He needs the love he deserves.

Omg every time he’d appear as the “chaperone” for Nesta and Cassian–omg I was dying of laughter. I loved those scenes. Poor Azzy having to deal with Nesta and Cas, tsk tsk naughty Fae. But the friendship between Nesta and Azzy ohmygod my heart, im crying it was so beautiful. Azzy have Nesta

Also, something else as to why I think AzrielxElain wont be endgame is because during the solstice dance, both Cas and Eris talk about how smothered/plain Elain is wearing black, which I feel like is SJM’s way of saying that Elain isn’t compatible with The Night Court and it’s darkness & shadows. ahhh I truly feel like she’s going to go to another court in the next book.

Also Azzy’s shadows disappear when they’re around Elain. Meanwhile, the shadows dont disappear around Gwyn…they come alive around her. I don’t know about you, but it looks like SJM is trying to say something👀 I stan Gwynriel

“I am the rock against which the surf crashes.”

“Nothing can break me.”

AND THE FACT THAT AZZY SINGS AND GWYN SINGS SDFGSDFD I CANT😭🤚

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“I’ll deny it to the grave if you tell anyone, but I missed you too, Cursebreaker.”

Helion is amazing sdfgdsfsdf I love him so much. I think we can all agree with needing more Helion these next few books. And for Lucien to find out the truth🥺 We need a Lucien book so bad omg so many books needed.

I’m so curious as to what really was going on when Nesta asked about Jurian & Vassa and Lucien replied sharply HMM I may be reading too much into that, but something’s going on ughhh I wanna know more about those three.

ALSO, ERIS. There is SO MUCH MORE to Eris then is shown. I really want to see more Eris and his story. I believe there’s a lot more to him and Cas even sees that he’s a decent guy.

Oh, another thing I forgot to mention was the fact that Nesta Made three magic weapons and one of them she named the sword Ataraxia, which means Inner Peace…I’m in love. I stan Nesta so much. She grew to be so much stronger than she was before annnnnd the tears are coming in again.😃✌

This reminds me of Feyre and Nesta’s relationship. sobs It brings me joy to see the two finally understand and show their love for each other. No matter what, Feyre wouldn’t give up on her either. She tried so hard to help Nesta and I love Feyre so much for that. Unlike cough some people cough Rhysand. I actually despised him at one point in the novel, it was so messed up. I don’t love him anymore, but I’m glad everything’s good between Nesta and Rhys now.

Although, I have to say that when Nesta apologized to everyone it irked me. Like yeah, she did say harmful things to them, but the Inner Circle did too?? Honestly, they should’ve apologized too, mainly Rhys and Amren but ah, that didn’t happen rage they should grovel at her feet.

Those last few chapters had crying with them so much ohmygod even though I knew Rhys and Feyre wouldn’t die sdfgdsfg TALK ABOUT STRESSFUL. To see them all in so much pain and fear broke me so much.

Their baby boy’s name is Nyx — please erase my feelings. So beautiful that ending. Dark haired, blue eyed Nyx.🥺 I’m crying god.

(Okay I’ll stop being an emotional mess.)

OMG WAIT. JUST ONE MORE THING I REALIZED. THIS:

THAT WAS AELIN. AELIN WAS THE RED SHOOTING STAR OHMYGOD I AM SHOOK FR WTH OMG I DIDNT NOTICE THAT THE FIRST TIME WHAT THE HELL SARAH. OMG YOU WITCH, I LOVE YOU. FDDSFGDSDF AELIN APPEARED OHMYGODD I CANT GET OVER THIS. AELIN FLEW THROUGH THE 26 REALMS

(Okay, NOW I’ll stop)

All in all, this was absolutely perfect in my eyes. minus the too much smut Sarah has once again made me fall in love with her book and now I don’t know what to do with my life.

I pray that the next book is about Az and I’m hoping that it comes out next year.

Thank you, Sarah, for creating this beautiful and inspiring story.

In the beginning
And in the end
There was Darkness
And nothing more.

𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥’𝕤 𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕗𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕞𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕒𝕝 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕥𝕙 𝕣𝕖𝕡 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕤? ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕 𝔸ℂ𝕆𝕊𝔽? 𝕎𝕙𝕠’𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕗𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕣?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕