Heir of Fire (Throne of Glass, #3) by Sarah J. Maas | Review

Celaena has survived deadly contests and shattering heartbreak-but at an unspeakable cost. Now, she must travel to a new land to confront her darkest truth . . . a truth about her heritage that could change her life-and her future-forever. Meanwhile, brutal and monstrous forces are gathering on the horizon, intent on enslaving her world. Will Celaena find the strength to not only fight her inner demons, but to take on the evil that is about to be unleashed?

Rating: 4.5 out of 5.

It’s been weeks since I finished reading HoF and I’ve been trying to write a review for it but I just couldn’t. I struggled. And I kept wondering why? Why was it so hard for me to write a review for this?

It was heartbreaking, yes, but The Burning God was even more heartbreaking and we don’t talk about that yet I was able to write a review for that. HoF wasn’t a terrible book either, so it shouldn’t have been difficult for me to write down my thoughts.

But then I realized why… it was really simple honestly.

I didn’t know what to say.


Heir of Fire was beautiful. So beautiful that deep down I knew that no matter what I said, it wouldn’t be enough to show my love for this book.

This is a journey of grief. Of pain, love, friendship, and finding your way back up to the surface after being buried deep inside a bottomless pit.

Celaena has been through a lot and it hurts knowing that this is only just the beginning of more pain and suffering. But no matter what, as long as there’s light in this world of darkness, there is hope.

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“She was the heir of ash and fire, and she would bow to no one.”

Death has once again made an appearance in Celaena’s life. After a shocking turn of events, Celaena has left Adarlan and journeyed to Wendlyn on a mission to uncover truths that have been hidden for too long. Secrets will be revealed, new forces will awaken, and… Celaena will have to face her past.

Fireheart—why do you cry?

“Because I am lost,” she whispered onto the earth. “And I do not know the way.”

The amount of times I wanted to cry watching Celaena struggle with her grief and trauma. It was heartbreaking as always. She was filled with so much regret and guilt, going as far as saying that she didn’t deserve to live–my heart * sobs * But in the face of all of this, even when she wanted to give up–there was always something stopping her. Or more like a certain someone among other things👀

And of course, there were new characters who played a role in her healing.

“I claim you, Aelin. To whatever end.”

Rowan Whitethorn–I can see why a lot may have hated this book and him so much. I despised Rowan. The way he treated Celaena in the beginning was absolutely despicable and the things he said….* rage *

But that’s what makes the development between the two so amazing. They went from “i-want-to-murder-you-and-make-you-wish-you-were-never-born” to “i-want-to-murder-you-with-love-and-annoy-the-hell-out-of-you.” Isn’t that such amazing development?? Ah, but of course it’s platonic love.

Woah, wait. I just realized that this is the first (and probably only) SJM book that didn’t have the female main character with a love interest??? ohmygod I am shook. ofc that’ll change in the next book but sdfsdsdfs

Anyways, I don’t really love Rowan. I like him, but not love. Maybe that will change when I re-read Queen of Shadows though. The scene at the end was definitely so sweet.🥺

“You do not have the right to wish she were not what she is. The only thing you have a right to do is decide whether you are her enemy or her friend.”

Dorian calling out Chaol was probably one of the best scenes when it came to their povs. I didn’t really enjoy Dorian or Chaol’s povs. I mean, I also didn’t enjoy Manon’s pov either ahaha although that’s no surprise (hence the 0.5 star being taken off). I was really only looking forward to Celaena’s chapters. thats no surprise either

Dorian’s a cinnamon roll and cinnamon rolls do not deserve to suffer * sobs *

Chaol was… Chaol. Struggling with all the change that’s happening and to say he doesn’t like this change is an understatement.

Sorscha was just there. Like I admire her and the way she was there for Dorian–because of that, I like her.

Manon was boring. I skimmed some of her chapters in the beginning because honestly I could care less. Although, I did actually like her chapters more towards the end.

Aedion’s loyalty to his queen is amazing. All this time thinking she was dead to find out she’s not and that ending-

It’s always the last few pages when everything goes to hell🙂

“She was Aelin Ashryver Galathynius—­and she would not be afraid.”

The Way of Kings (The Stormlight Archives, #1) by Brandon Sanderson | Review

Bonjour! I’m here today to convince you all to read this masterpiece. Yes, it’s a thousand pages, but I promise you that it goes by so fast (at least for me). I’m not joking when I say that this book has easily beat it to my top 5 all time favourite books at least until i read the rest of the series. Sanderson is a genius, but I never imagined just how much of a genius he is??? Anyways PLEASE ADD THIS TO YOUR TBR IF YOU HAVEN’T ALREADY. I’M BEGGING YOU.

From #1 New York Times bestselling author Brandon Sanderson, The Way of Kings, book one of The Stormlight Archive begins an incredible new saga of epic proportion.

Roshar is a world of stone and storms. Uncanny tempests of incredible power sweep across the rocky terrain so frequently that they have shaped ecology and civilization alike. Animals hide in shells, trees pull in branches, and grass retracts into the soilless ground. Cities are built only where the topography offers shelter.

It has been centuries since the fall of the ten consecrated orders known as the Knights Radiant, but their Shardblades and Shardplate remain: mystical swords and suits of armor that transform ordinary men into near-invincible warriors. Men trade kingdoms for Shardblades. Wars were fought for them, and won by them.

One such war rages on a ruined landscape called the Shattered Plains. There, Kaladin, who traded his medical apprenticeship for a spear to protect his little brother, has been reduced to slavery. In a war that makes no sense, where ten armies fight separately against a single foe, he struggles to save his men and to fathom the leaders who consider them expendable.

Brightlord Dalinar Kholin commands one of those other armies. Like his brother, the late king, he is fascinated by an ancient text called The Way of Kings. Troubled by over-powering visions of ancient times and the Knights Radiant, he has begun to doubt his own sanity.

Across the ocean, an untried young woman named Shallan seeks to train under an eminent scholar and notorious heretic, Dalinar’s niece, Jasnah. Though she genuinely loves learning, Shallan’s motives are less than pure. As she plans a daring theft, her research for Jasnah hints at secrets of the Knights Radiant and the true cause of the war.

The result of over ten years of planning, writing, and world-building, The Way of Kings is but the opening movement of the Stormlight Archive, a bold masterpiece in the making.

Speak again the ancient oaths:

Life before death.
Strength before weakness.
Journey before Destination.

and return to men the Shards they once bore.

The Knights Radiant must stand again.
 

Rating: 5 out of 5.

Sanderson is a monster.

How does one write a masterpiece such as this?? How does one create such complex and beautiful characters, worldbuilding, and plot??? How does one write a 1000 page novel and make it feel like a short book?? How does one continue to destroy my heart but also fill it with love???


10 years in the making and I can no doubt see how much of his sweat, blood, and tears were poured into this book. I’m in awe. And if this was published in 2010 , I can only imagine how epic the next 3 books already out will be??

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“The purpose of a storyteller is not to tell you how to think, but to give you questions to think upon.”

Thousands of years ago, the Knights Radiant, an order of magic users meant to protect the people of Roshar from dark forces, betrayed mankind by abandoning them, nobody knowing where they’ve disappeared. However, they also left powerful weapons behind called Shardblades with its companion, Shardplates, a suit of armor to complete the set. Kingdoms go to war over these magical items and to own this is to be a Shardbearer, warriors having the strength of several men.

Ever since the assassination of the King Gavilar Kholin six years ago, the kingdom of Alethkar has been at war with the Parshendi who are said to have murdered the king. Dalinar and Adolin Kholin fight in this war of vengeance, while across the land, Shallan fights her way to become the ward of a well known heretic and scholar who has what she needs. And then there’s a man who’s lost all hope, a man who fights for survival even during times of despair…Kaladin Stormblessed.

“Somebody has to start. Somebody has to step forward and do what is right, because it is right.”

Kaladin is such a tortured character in the beginning, I just wanted to go and hug him. Protect him from the world. Kaladin doesn’t deserve all that’s happened to him sobs Branded as a slave and sent off to be a bridgeman — the most dangerous role in war, having to carry (along with other men) large, mobile bridges to set across the chasms in the Shattered Plains for soldiers to cross. Meanwhile, you don’t have any protection from the enemy who lie across the chasms with their arrows💀 It’s basically a death sentence for any man.

The mental health rep is done so, so well. I love it so much, like the way I was about to cry at so many scenes?? it might just be me being emotional Kaladin struggled so much with all that he’s lost and all who he’s failed, that it just felt easier to give up rather than deal with the pain of losing any more people he loved/cared for. Syl is literally perfect. She was there for Kaladin during his darkest moments and the bond between them was so beautiful.🥺 Kaladin fighting against depression and being the light for the other bridgemen… never in a million years did I think I was going to fall in love with the men in Bridge Four. Kaladin was their hope. Their hope for survival. Their hope for a future.

I’m just going to say this right now—IF SANDERSON DECIDES TO PULL SOMETHING LIKE KILLING THE WHOLE CREW EXCEPT FOR KALADIN, MY HEART WILL DIE AND I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU, SANDERSON.

I really don’t think I’ll be able to take that pain, but I know that Sanderson is the king of destroying his readers’ poor souls, so I’m just going to be prepared and still die

I made a mistake growing attached to these lovable idiots, more specifically Teft, Rock, Lopen, Skar, and Moash (especially this guy, i didnt think it was possible). I love these guys so much and now I live in constant fear that they’ll be killed-

Also just the bantering between them all ohmygod they were too good. So many favourite scenes bahaha

“I don’t know,” Teft grumbled. “But I’ve never liked them. They seem to be able to talk to each other, without making any sounds. I don’t like the way they look.”

“Teft,” Kaladin said flatly, “if we rejected bridgemen based on their looks, we’d have kicked you out weeks ago for that face of yours.”

Teft just got destroyed.

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“Sometimes the prize is not worth the costs. The means by which we achieve victory are as important as the victory itself.”

Dalinar Kholin aka the Blackthorn, brother of the previous King Gavilar and now uncle of the current King Elhokar, is long past his glorious days, at least in the eyes of others. Visions have begun to consume his mind during highstorms and now Dalinar has beun questioning his own sanity. Are these visions real? Who is sending these visions to him? Are they to be trusted? Or has Dalinar just lost his mind?

Dalinar’s bluntness and genuineness makes him one of the only honourable lighteyes. In this land, power is divided by lighteyes and darkeyes—the people with light eye colours are the ruling class with the most power, while the people with dark eye colours are beneath them. So of course, majority of the lighteyes are going to be jerks, but Dalinar is an exception.🥺 To him, honor is everything. And his love for his family is just so heartwarming.

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“At times, it seems to me that to be human is to want that which we cannot have. For some, this is power. For me, it is peace.”

Adolin Kholin, son of Dalinar, is a cinnamon roll. He’s just as amazing as his father and he’s so sweet ohmygod I love his loyalty to his family. Adolin will literally challenge anyone who even I>thinks about insulting his father or brother and is very hot-headed warrior. I love that even being one of those who believes that his father may be going insane, Adolin still stands by his side🥺 There wasn’t enough Adolin in this book, so I’m ready to see more of him in WoR ❤

“I believe that my own morality—which answers only to my heart—is more sure and true than the morality of those who do right only because they fear retribution.”

Shallan Davar, daughter of her late father, has travelled to another land in order to become the ward of the famous Jasnah Kholin. However, Shallan’s true objective is to steal something and bring it back to her homeland in order to save her family from their enemies around them.

I’m so in love with Shallan’s stubbornness and wit. The way she’d just speak her mind and give off so many sarcastic comments was hilarious. And then afterwards she would be feeling embarrassed and it was just so adorable. Shallan’s an artist and I loved how there were pieces of her drawings throughout the book??? It was gorgeous omg. Also, after that ending, I’m so excited to see Shallan and her interactions with ~certain people~

“Better to exist in agony than to vanquish entirely.”

Szeth barely had any chapters, yet I found his povs amazing and heartbreaking. Imagine not having control of your own body and being forced to kill so many people??? The things he’s had to do… stormfather, it’s horrifying. AND THAT LAST CHAPTER OF HIS??? Oh god, I so wasn’t expecting that. extremely concerned

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Just going to add this in because I must, but one of the best (& funniest) aspects of this world was that tradition said that women were required to cover their left hands. If a woman were to expose their left hand, it’d be considered ✨scandalous✨ and honestly every time that was mentioned I was wheezing. It’s hilarious seeing men blush if they saw that hand exposed omg I couldn’t stop laughing. Szeth himself even commented on how odd it is. LOL I LOVE THAT.

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So as you can see, I came into this expecting to love this but little did I know how much this would capture my heart and soul. This is the type of book that you know you’ll love, but even then it still sneaks up on you and makes you fall hard. My only regret is that I started this series now and I know for a fact I won’t be able to stop myself from reading the next 3 books before the 5th comes out and then I’ll be having to wait until 2023 for it sobs but at the same time I don’t regret reading this right now?? I don’t know how that works smh.

For anyone who’s scared of how long this book is, believe me, I was terrified too BUT IT GOES BY SO FAST. The characters, plot, and world is just that good. This masterpiece must be read by more🥺

“None of it mattered. He would just keep living. They’d taken his freedom, his family, his friends, and— most dear of all— his dreams.

They could do nothing more to him.”

House of Earth and Blood (Crescent City, #1) by Sarah J. Maas | Review – I fell in loveee

Bryce Quinlan had the perfect life—working hard all day and partying all night—until a demon murdered her closest friends, leaving her bereft, wounded, and alone. When the accused is behind bars but the crimes start up again, Bryce finds herself at the heart of the investigation. She’ll do whatever it takes to avenge their deaths.

Hunt Athalar is a notorious Fallen angel, now enslaved to the Archangels he once attempted to overthrow. His brutal skills and incredible strength have been set to one purpose—to assassinate his boss’s enemies, no questions asked. But with a demon wreaking havoc in the city, he’s offered an irresistible deal: help Bryce find the murderer, and his freedom will be within reach.

As Bryce and Hunt dig deep into Crescent City’s underbelly, they discover a dark power that threatens everything and everyone they hold dear, and they find, in each other, a blazing passion—one that could set them both free, if they’d only let it.

With unforgettable characters, sizzling romance, and page-turning suspense, this richly inventive new fantasy series by #1 New York Times bestselling author Sarah J. Maas delves into the heartache of loss, the price of freedom—and the power of love.

Rating: 5 out of 5.

SJM keeps breaking my heart over and over again and I keep coming back every. single. time.

I have a very toxic relationship with her books.


But I will never stop coming back to them, because stopping is like telling me to stop breathing. Does that sound dramatic? Because I’m dead serious. The day I stop reading Sarah’s books is when you know my angelic spirit has fallen and I’ve been possessed by one of those devils. cough you know who you are cough

And every time I finish one of her books, I feel like I’m overflowing with love. There’s so much happiness, heartbreak, and then excruciating pain as I realize that I have to wait a millennium for the next book. Oh, and the slump that comes afterwards💀

Curse all of you who told me to read this right now. Each and every one of you are devils.



I know some people found the beginning to be slow, but I actually didn’t have any problems with it. I found it perfect, learning about the world and the characters was beautiful. I wasn’t bored for one second and it literally makes me so happy because I was scared this wouldn’t meet my expectations. Shame on me for doubting this queen.

And don’t even get me started on the ending of this masterpiece. I did not see any of that coming (view spoiler)[except I had a feeling Bryce would have some special power and she did, which I totally don’t mind because SHE MADE THE DROP AND IS STRONGER THAN THE AUTUMN KING AHAHAHAHA (hide spoiler)] I was literally sobbing so much. What is it with the ending always destroying me??? It was so beautiful and heartbreaking, I swear.

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“That’s the point of it, Bryce. Of life. To live, to love, knowing that it might all vanish tomorrow. It makes everything that much more precious.”

I’ve loved every one of SJM’s female protagonists, but ohmygod Bryce Quinlan totally beats them all. She literally leaves me in awe. The way she loves so much, and would live life to its fullest—that is until the death of her friends, Danika Fendyr and The Pack of Devilssobbing From there, she’s an empty shell of her former self.

And the thing is that we barely knew Danika and the others we were even warned smh yet it was still heartbreaking when they were murdered and watching Bryce in so much pain just broke me. Leave it to Sarah to be able to destroy my soul for characters that only appeared in the first 100 pages. Danika and Bryce’s friendship was so beautiful I could cry for eternity and still never recover from what happened. Bryce, my queen.🥺

Even heartbroken, she tried so hard to make it seem like she’s okay so that those around her wouldn’t worry, putting on the image of the classic party girl who doesn’t give a care in the world, meanwhile she’s slowly breaking more and more on the inside—

Okay, but the way Bryce is bold enough to snap selfies right in front of the Archangel, Sandriel, and can literally make the Umbra Mortis feel like he’s three inches tall is actually just too good.

The Umbra Mortis looked pissed, his arms crossed and wings flaring slightly, but Bryce just breezed past him without so much as a glance. Causing Athalar to slowly turn, arms slackening at his sides, as if such a thing had never happened in his long, miserable life.

I seriously could go on forever with the amount of times Hunt was so pissed by Bryce, especially in the beginning ahaha omg.

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“Bryce was a ghost for a long while, Hunt. She pretended she wasn’t, but she was​.” The helicopter finally pulled into the air. “You brought her back to life.”

From the moment Hunt Athalar looked Bryce right in the eye and told her to “calm the fuck down,” I knew I’d love him. I mean, who wouldn’t???

I can definitely see similarities between Hunt and all of Sarah’s other male love interests but you know what? Hunt is a thousand times better than Rowan and Rhysand. I love the way he challenges Bryce and tries to care for her, while at the same time not being super overprotective cough unlike some people, although there is still the 2nd book for him to act like that hopefully not He’s the typical tall, dark and brooding guy who has a tragic backstory—just like Rowan (altho he has white hair but you get what I mean) and Rhysand, yet somehow I actually love him way more than both.

Bryce’s relationship with Hunt is most definitely superior to all of Sarah’s other series’ relationships involving the main characters. Like the banter?? The openness of it?? The heartwarming scenes??? Perfection. I could literally compile all of their convos into a whole book and never get tired of reading them. Their interactions were pure gold.

“You’re my friend. Who watches trashy TV with me and puts up with my shit. You’re the person I don’t need to explain myself to—not when it matters. You see everything I am, and you don’t run away from it.”

Also, just… the shower scene sobbing it was so beautiful and heartbreaking and that’s all I need to say.

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“The only thing I want to be called right now is your brother.” He added softly, “If you’ll have me.”

I literally love almost every character in this book, but of all of them, Ruhn Danaan is just everything. He’s such a cinnamon roll. So sweet and trying so hard to be there for Bryce after their falling out years before. That scene at the end had me crying so much. I love you, Ruhn.

Okay, but even though Ruhn is everything, I would marry Declan Emmet. Declan is my favourite i know, how could i possibly have chosen a favourite?? He’s who I’ve fallen in love with. Why you ask? This guy is a computer geek, master hacker, tech god (thinking abt a certain scene iykyk) and I love that. Plus he’s charming, gorgeous and super sweet?? I’ve fallen so hard for Declan, it’s not even funny🤚

Also being with Declan would mean I could be friends with Ruhn and Flynn🥺 I love the trio omg

Seriously though, can I have a Declan?? I’ve found a new book boyfriend omg😭 Oh also I want Tharion, too. Knowing that there’s going to be 200% more Tharion in CC2 makes my heart happy sdfsfs there can never be enough Tharion.

“Bryce, this is Tharion Ketos.” She stepped closer to the concrete edge of the quay. “An old friend.”

Tharion grinned at Hunt again. “Not as old as you.”

Bryce gave the male a half smile. “Nice to meet you.”

Tharion’s light brown eyes glittered. “The pleasure, Bryce, is all mine.”

Tharion is such a a flirt and I love it. I need more Tharion Ketos <33

AND THEN AIDAS. omg do you know how much it killed me after seeing how much the fandom loved him and then me finding out that he only appears once??? what. the. hell. So not fair😭 yet with that one appearance, I already love him. Not as much as Tharion, Ruhn, and Declan of course, but still ahhh he’s such an interesting demon kitty. And I love demon kitties.

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🛑MAJOR SPOILERS BELOW🛑

I actually thought something was wrong with me when I had a hundred pages left, and I still hadn’t cried at all . Like there were some emotional scenes and I got teary-eyed, but no actual sob-fest. And especially after hearing from literally everyone I know that CC destroyed them, I was so confused?? nervous laughter little did I know that those last hundred pages would indeed break me.

“We were supposed to do this together. We were supposed to live out our lives together”

Danika being there for Bryce while she made the Drop ohmygod I was sobbing. The “Light it up” scene—I swear I wanted to die. And it was also 2am in the morning when I was reading this sooo💀

Also I’ll never forget how shocked everyone, but especially Sandriel, was when Bryce just casually vacuumed up the ashes of Micah. Best scene by far. Along with Hunt ripping off Sandriel’s head, of course.😌

Then Lele sacrificing herself in order to give Bryce enough time to be able to kill Micah- THAT ONE LINE. I SEE WHAT YOU DID SARAH😭😭 “My friends are with me and I am not afraidthe exact line is I will not be afraid sdfdsfs but close enough sobs Sam

Okay and finding out that Bryce was so close to jumping at one point after Danika’s death ohmygod that hurt so much and Juniper being there for Bryce before she did–I can’t deal with all of that😭

I keep saying certain scenes are my favourite BUT THIS SERIOUSLY IS MY FAVOURITE TOO. Declan, aka the love of my life, hacking into all the cameras & calls and livestreaming everything was amazing omg. Micah being exposed was the best part–or wait, everyone hearing Ember Quinlan act all smug towards the Autumn King, while he raged might’ve been the best. hmmm the struggles ahhh everything was perfect ohmygod I love you Declan.

OMG and the part where Bryce wrote back to Connor after having the thread saved for 2 years.😭😭 And Bryce seeing the pack towards the end omg omg I’m going to start crying again.

Bryce’s eyes stung as she smiled softly, then read through Connor’s last words to her.

“Message me when you’re home safe.”

Bryce began typing. The answer it had taken her two years, nearly to the day, to write.

“I’m home.”

There was one scene where I probably shouldn’t have been laughing and instead crying, but I couldn’t help it. Hunt trying to bring Bryce back to life and what he said-

“I heard what you said.” Pump, pump, pump went his powerful arms. “What you waited to admit until I was almost dead, you fucking coward.” His lightening surged into her, sending her body arcing off the ground as he tried to jump-start her heart. He snarled in her ear, “Now come say it to my face.”

I love these two so much ohmygod I’m not going to bother saying that I hope they’re endgame, because I know they are. There’s no way after everything that’s happened that Sarah would just ruin all of that in the next book, especially because Hunt and Bryce’s relationship is like Rowaelin and Feysand. Both accepted everything about the other and didn’t shy away from it. The only reason I could imagine that they wouldn’t be endgame is if Sarah kills off Hunt-

yea no, forget I even said that. Sarah wouldn’t dare🙂🔪🔪🔪

🛑SPOILERS HAVE ENDED🛑

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So as you can tell, Sarah has once again destroyed me beyond recognition and I honestly think I’m going to slowly wither away waiting for CC2. At least let there be a release date. PLEASE??? sobbing I’m not joking when I said I curse all of you. I’ll have my revenge one day 🙂

Now you see, usually I’m all for recommending masterpieces, but for this…hell no.

If you value your sanity, then you will not read HOEAB right now. If you value your sanity, you’ll wait until there’s at least a release date for CC2. If you value your sanity, you’ll wait until CC2 itself is released.

But if you have no self-control and/or think sanity is overrated like me, then go on ahead. I wish you all the luck in the world because you’ll soon regret that decision.

“Through love, all is possible.”

Will my love for Declan Emmet have the release date for CC2 be revealed faster???

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honorable mention: thank you krizzie, el, and mashie for listening to my screaming, fangirling, and terrible theories!! I still curse you three the most tho <33 ik, what an honor

ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕 ℍ𝕠𝕦𝕤𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝔼𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕙 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝔹𝕝𝕠𝕠𝕕? 𝕎𝕙𝕠’𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕗𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕣? 𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥’𝕤 𝕒 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕪𝕠𝕦’𝕧𝕖 𝕓𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕞𝕖𝕒𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕠 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕒 𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪 𝕝𝕠𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕚𝕞𝕖?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

The Burning God (The Poppy War, #3) by R.F. Kuang | Review

After saving her nation of Nikan from foreign invaders and battling the evil Empress Su Daji in a brutal civil war, Fang Runin was betrayed by allies and left for dead. 

Despite her losses, Rin hasn’t given up on those for whom she has sacrificed so much—the people of the southern provinces and especially Tikany, the village that is her home. Returning to her roots, Rin meets difficult challenges—and unexpected opportunities. While her new allies in the Southern Coalition leadership are sly and untrustworthy, Rin quickly realizes that the real power in Nikan lies with the millions of common people who thirst for vengeance and revere her as a goddess of salvation. 

Backed by the masses and her Southern Army, Rin will use every weapon to defeat the Dragon Republic, the colonizing Hesperians, and all who threaten the shamanic arts and their practitioners. As her power and influence grows, though, will she be strong enough to resist the Phoenix’s intoxicating voice urging her to burn the world and everything in it? 

The exciting end to The Poppy War trilogy, R. F. Kuang’s acclaimed, award-winning epic fantasy that combines the history of twentieth-century China with a gripping world of gods and monsters, to devastating, enthralling effect.

Rating: 4.5 out of 5.

Guys, this was the happiest book ever!! Happy ending! Happy characters! Happy everything! Kuang couldn’t have written it better! Everyone’s happy, safe… I dont know why people are saying this is heartbreaking? If anything, it’s heartwarming!

My heart totally didn’t feel like it was being ripped out of my chest and thrown into a shredder! I totally did not go to sleep crying and wake up again crying! I totally don’t feel like I need someone to pay for my therapy bills!

No, not at all.

I’m completely fine.


yea no, I feel like I’m dying. I am dying. This pain should be illegal. What is happiness? This is so depressing. And me, the masochist, keeps going back to the last two chapters sobs what am I doing to myself?

Please end me.


Funny how I said that reading Clockwork Princess, The Hero of Ages (etc) were the most I’ve ever cried — HA I lied. No book like The Burning God’s ending has ever made me sob this much. I am dead. It’s to the point where every single time I close my eyes, I picture the ending and that is not okay. Kuang, what have you done to me???

There’s no peace, only pain. This has quite literally left a scar on my heart and soul forever. Not only did Kuang bury the knife deep into my heart, but she twisted it causing me excruciating pain.

I actually can’t think about this book without crying, so this review is basically me as an emotional wreck. Sorry but not really in advance.

(Also, there are no spoilers in this review until the end when I give out the warning!!)

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“The point of revenge wasn’t to heal. The point was that the exhilaration, however temporary, drowned out the hurt.”

This whole journey has been full of trust, love, hatred, revenge, pain… I’ve never before seen such a story have so many complex issues. It’s astounds me.

Rin’s character has developed so much. I can’t believe this all started with poor 14 year old Rin who just wanted to get out of marriage by studying to enroll in Sinegard… to this. It breaks my heart when I see how much she’s gone through.

And it’s not just Rin. Kitay, Venka, Nezha, Atlan, the Cike… they’ve all suffered so much throughout the whole series. Kuang is a demon with her characters. There’s literally nobody in this trilogy who hasn’t suffered. Of course, some had it coming and deserved it, but others… sobs no, no, they definitely didn’t deserve that.

I swear, it brought me so much joy seeing Rin finally accept who she was and where she came from, and be proud of it. These last two books, she’d constantly be insulted because of her dark-skin and having come from Tikany, a poor village in Rooster Province. Because of this, she hated herself and thought the others to be superior, trying to cut all ties with her former village.

However, here Rin learned to embrace it all. She accepted everything that she was and most importantly, she did not bow to anyone. Rin’s now chooses to be in command.

No longer would she be the submissive fool she once was. although she still makes some pretty dumb mistakesShe leads. She gives the orders. She deals out the punishments. I literally love this girl.

And after the ending of The Dragon Republic, I was so looking forward to retribution. I am not completely satisfied, but satisfied enough. The pain she dealt to certain people was amazing. My only complaint was that it wasn’t dragged out longer for a certain person :’ (

“It doesn’t go away. It never will. But when it hurts, lean into it. It’s so much harder to stay alive. That doesn’t mean you don’t deserve to live. It means you’re brave.”

Please, Kitay actually deserves everything. While I had conflicted feelings throughout this series about Rin, Nezha, and others — my love for Kitay was the only constant. When I say not one moment did I hate him, I mean not one moment.

From the moment I met this cinnamon roll in The Poppy War, I fell in love and automatically knew he had to be protected at all costs.

Literally their friendship was so heartbreaking and beautiful. Watching them argue over and over again, but then come back still loving the other so much ohmygod-

This. THIS is literally a perfect example on how platonic love can be just as amazing, actually even better , than a romantic one. I love it. I love it. I love it so much.

Kitay was the anchor to Rin’s sanity. He’d always try preventing her from making rash and stupid decisions. He’s her moral conscience.

Can I just please go back to the first book? I thought TPW was horrifying and depressing, AHAHA what a joke, TPW is heaven compared to the rest of the series.

I want my children to stay happy together at Sinegard sobs this torture. Erase everything that’s happened after that moment. I want a Kitay. My baby-

Also it was amazing learning so much more about the Trifecta. Their history, the missions they made, each and every one of them and how they acted… all I have to say is damn.

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(🛑MAJOR SPOILERS for the end of TBG start here!! Skip to the bottom if you don’t want to be spoiled🛑)

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“Dying was easy. Living was so much harder—that was the most important lesson Atlan had ever taught her.”

So you’re telling me, all that hard work, all that pain, torture, and suffering, all those years of war….

ONLY for Kitay and Rin to die like that???

They beat the Hesperians in battle, but in the end, it was because of the famine and damage Nikan took, that the Hesperians ended up winning and I am forever destroyed.

BUT IT MAKES SENSE AND THATS WHAT HURTS THE MOST.

But all those memories they had together in the span of those 5 years — some good, mostly bad, BUT STILL. they were memories of them suffering together and I am not okay.

And the fact that Kitay and Rin’s last moments together were of them fighting breaks every part of me beyond recognition. IT HURTS. Rin thinking Kitay betrayed her ohmygod PLEASE STOP THIS PAIN.

And the fact that Kitay’s last words in this world were “You’re hurting me” to Rin absolutely destroys me and I am sobbing.

The way I can imagine Kitay’s pained expression so clearly I SWEAR ITS KILLING ME. PLEASE OMG.

And can I just say — Rin literally chose death over surrendering to the Hesperians/cooperating with them. The way she knew that this fighting would never end if she lived and never surrendered. It honestly would’ve been so wrong if she’d given up to them, but she really went ahead and said “I’d rather die than bow down to these bastards.” She literally sacrificed herself in hopes for a better world, knowing she wouldn’t be the one to do it. AND I RESPECT THAT SO MUCH, BUT IT HURTS. She died on Speerly, and I died with her.

AND I CAN’T BELIEVE OUT OF ALL OF THEM, ONLY NEZHA SURVIVED. (Although I honestly shouldn’t be surprised) Venka my baby, also died and it was so heartbreaking that she died Rin thinking she was a traitor like hell no WHY?! Venka didn’t deserve that, Kitay didn’t deserve that, what the hell. While Rin got out of bowing to the Hesperians, Nezha’s going to have to so honestly, nevermind, that’s torture itself. I could never.

It actually broke me even before the deaths started. They were all so so depressed at the end, suffered so so much, and I hate this so much, but it was so realistic.

They’ve all come a long way from the children they once were.

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🛑SPOILERS HAVE ENDED🛑

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“You never want to hurt them. But you have to. You have to put them through hell, because that’s the only way anyone else will survive.”

Oh no, I’m quite certain Kuang wanted to hurt us. We were put through hell and none of us survived, but still… this author has my heart.

I swear, if I was rating the ending itself I’d 100% give this 5 stars, but unfortunately I’m not and I have to say that some parts in the book dragged out a lot, especially during the many marches. Don’t get me wrong, they were interesting, but my mind drifted a lot.

However, despite me giving this 4.5 stars, this is most definitely an all-time-favourite because that ending broke my heart into more pieces than I could’ve possibly imagined. It was a sob-fest. And I even knew how this was going to end so I prepared myself but that didn’t work at all. Kuang is both a genius and a monster.

I hate that I can never read more about these fleshed out and glorious characters. I hate that even if I re-read, it’ll never be the same. I hate this so much, because I do not want to part with them.

But you know what, even thinking all of that I regret nothing. If anything, I regret not reading this series sooner. I will forever be grateful for the pain beautiful story Kuang has created and I know that whatever series she’s going to make next will be just as painful beautiful.

Go ahead and ruin me, Kuang.

“Do it. Take what you want… I’ll hate you for it. But I’ll love you forever. I can’t help but love you.

Ruin me, ruin us, and I’ll let you.”

(4.5⭐)

Honourable mention: I’m forever grateful to the best demon out there Mashie for being there for me while I screamed, raged, laughed, and cried. You truly made this book even more amazing than I could’ve imagined. Thank you so much🥺 I couldn’t have possibly survived the aftermath of the ending if it weren’t for you.💙

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Reviews:
The Poppy War: ★★★★.5
The Dragon Republic: ★★★★★
The Burning God: ★★★★.5

𝔻𝕚𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕝𝕤𝕠 𝕕𝕚𝕖 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕋𝔹𝔾? 𝕎𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕝𝕒𝕤𝕥 𝕥𝕚𝕞𝕖 𝕒 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕕𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕣𝕠𝕪𝕖𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪 𝕤𝕠𝕦𝕝? ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕋ℙ𝕎? (𝕚𝕗 𝕟𝕠𝕥, 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕄𝕌𝕊𝕋 𝕗𝕖𝕖𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕡𝕒𝕚𝕟 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕞𝕖)

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

Red Winter (Red Winter Trilogy, #1) by Annette Marie | Review // ft. me screaming about a very underrated series!!

Emi is the kamigakari. In a few short months, her life as a mortal will end and her new existence as the human host of a goddess will begin. Carefully hidden from those who would destroy her, she has prepared her mind, body, and soul to unite with the goddess-and not once has she doubted her chosen fate.

Shiro is a yokai, a spirit of the earth, an enemy of the goddess Emi will soon host. Mystery shrouds his every move and his ruby eyes shine with cunning she can’t match and dares not trust. But she saved his life, and until his debt is paid, he is hers to command-whether she wants him or not. On the day they meet, everything Emi believes comes undone, swept away like snow upon the winter wind. For the first time, she wants to change her fate-but how can she erase a destiny already wrought in stone? Against the power of the gods, Shiro is her only hope… and hope is all she has left.

Rating: 5 out of 5.

i never thought it was possible for me to love this more than i did the first time, but it is.

best Japanese mythology based, slow-burn, enemies-to-lovers book i’ve ever read🥺


this trilogy is so underrated and that’s totally unacceptable. it deserves all the love. Like it has almost everyone’s favourite trope, enemies-to-lovers , AND it’s based off of Japanese mythology which I’ve barely seen in the book world.

it breaks my heart seeing how only about 6.5k ppl have read this sobs it deserves more recognition, this beautiful book. (altho, my love may be a tiny bit biased since I love Japanese culture so much BUT ANYWAYS)

trust me or maybe dont, the beginning is pretty slow, but once you reach around the 20% mark (chapter 7), it gets really good. the world building also may be a little confusing with all the terms, although you get used to it throughout the story (there’s also a glossary at the back of the book).

it’s funny, i actually struggled with the beginning during my first read, yet with this reread i didn’t mind the slow start at all and loved everything. the banter between Emi and Shiro is amazing and being introduced to my bby Yumei🥺 i cant not reread the rest of the series now that i’ve read this. I need more.


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“Because you are more to me now. Because you keep secrets like a kami and I’m curious what you hide. Because you are lonely and scared and I don’t understand why. Because you trust me when you know you shouldn’t. Because I believe you when you say you will keep your word.”

Emi is the kamigakari — destined to become the kami (goddess), Amaterasu’s, human host. As the kamigakari, Emi must remain pure both physically and mentally lest she be unable to receive the kami’s power and spirit.

No impure thoughts or urges, being restricted to what she can eat (it must all be healthy), having nobody of the opposite gender even touch her, and more… ah, what a sad life. imagine not being able to eat pizza shudder the horror

The life she has feels complete to Emi… until she stumbles across something that changes everything. And with that, it all starts — she meets Shiro, a suspicious shape-shifting kitsune (a fox yokai) who seems to be more than is shown. Yokai are spirits that are closely tied to nature and walk upon the Earth — they’re also known to be monsters or demons.

But Shiro, my love, is only the most amazing, swoon-worthy, and flirty yokai I know. The way I lived for his scenes with Emi🥺 i cant-

the question is… can you trust him? what does Shiro truly want? there must be some ulterior motive, right? this journey of trust and love throughout the trilogy is so, so beautiful. even if there was no plot, i would read this all just for these three <33

Yumei, aka the Tengu is also another yokai Emi meets. He’s very cold and annoyed often by Emi and Shiro hehe but secretly he cares😏 or does he Also, he’s very very sus. He doesn’t appear as much as Shiro, but in the next two books, Yumei shall shine more and make me fall even more in love with him. I still say there should be a spin-off for Yumei🥺 im not giving up on that.

“Don’t forget me, Shiro,” she said hoarsely. “You’re not allowed to forget me.”

“You’ll forget me someday, little miko.”

“I’ll never forget you,” she told him. “I’ll remember you to my last day.”

“Do you promise?”

Her heart gave an odd little flutter. “Yes, I promise.”

why do i keep doing this to myself

ALSO, shoutout to Katsuo for being such a kind-hearted and sweet friend to Emi <33

i will never stop loving this series. and this is only the first book, so i can only imagine how amazing it’s going to to be rereading the next two which are 10000 times better. altho… i’m scared to get my heartbroken, but that’s inevitable ¯_(ツ)_/¯

so ready for some more pain love✌

(also the art i posted above are only just a few of many illustrations in this book. ahhh another reason to read this)

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Buddy re-read with demon crisis krizzie, salty sofia, your hissingness, and lucid lucy <33

𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥’𝕤 𝕒𝕟 𝕦𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕣𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕤𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕜 𝕕𝕖𝕤𝕖𝕣𝕧𝕖𝕤 𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕖 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖? 𝔸𝕟𝕪 𝕁𝕒𝕡𝕒𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕖-𝕞𝕪𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕠𝕘𝕪 𝕓𝕒𝕤𝕖𝕕 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕠𝕗?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

The Inheritance Games (The Inheritance Games, #1) by Jennifer Lynn Barnes | Review

A Cinderella story with deadly stakes and thrilling twists.

Avery Grambs has a plan for a better future: survive high school, win a scholarship, and get out. But her fortunes change in an instant when billionaire Tobias Hawthorne dies and leaves Avery virtually his entire fortune. The catch? Avery has no idea why–or even who Tobias Hawthorne is. To receive her inheritance, Avery must move into sprawling, secret passage-filled Hawthorne House, where every room bears the old man’s touch–and his love of puzzles, riddles, and codes.

Unfortunately for Avery, Hawthorne House is also occupied by the family that Tobias Hawthorne just dispossessed. This includes the four Hawthorne grandsons: dangerous, magnetic, brilliant boys who grew up with every expectation that one day, they would inherit billions. Heir apparent Grayson Hawthorne is convinced that Avery must be a con-woman, and he’s determined to take her down. His brother, Jameson, views her as their grandfather’s last hurrah: a twisted riddle, a puzzle to be solved. Caught in a world of wealth and privilege, with danger around every turn, Avery will have to play the game herself just to survive.

Rating: 5 out of 5.

WHAT

it did not just end like that i-

also, jameson and grayson are mine😼 i cant choose one


ah, its been so long since I last read a mystery and this just made me remember how much I miss it. Once again, I have fallen in love. The characters, the plot, everything about this was just amazing.

Excuse me while I suffer waiting until September for book 2.✌

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“If there’s one thing the Hawthorne family isn’t, it’s fine. They were a twisted, broken mess before you got here, and they’ll be a twisted, broken mess once you’re gone.”

I still can’t get over that Avery just randomly got called to inherit a billionaire’s fortune?? How awesome is that? You don’t even know said billionaire and have never come across anyone close to them and yet you get all the money that was originally all supposed to go to his grandsons???

I couldn’t stop laughing when that happened. They were sooo pissed it was hilarious. Although I can’t blame them, I would’ve wanted to kill her… which is probably why she got all those death threats

ouch.

I love Avery. She’s literally so smart and the way she wouldn’t let her personal feelings get in the way in trying to find solve the case was really admirable. Also, being able to show no emotion on her face?? I wish I could do that — it sounds so cool and it’d be really useful for me during those games of chess i lose.

And Jameson ahhh Jamie my bby🥺 demon mashie mentioned how he gives off Matthew Fairchild vibes and seriously why is that so true??? TLH has gotten to us smh.

But anyways, I’m in love with his chaoticness (thats not a word) ughh I’m seeing a trend in the type of guys I keep falling for. i mean, he’s like matthew so how could i not love him?? Getting drunk to run away from his problems and acting like a maniac even sober… I love it. And the way he talked omg-

“If I do what I should no more often than I say what I shouldn’t—” his lips twisted—”then what does that make me?”

I had no idea what he was saying here?? Although he was drunk, so maybe that’s why, but ohmygod I literally spent 10 minutes trying to understand that sentence. god i love jamie.🥺 oh what a coincidence that he has the same nickname as james herondale…okay ill stop now

Okay, and then there’s the broody older brother, Grayson, who I absolutely despised at first, but he’s actually so sweet??? I can’t blame him for always putting his family first sdfsdfs what is this? Me falling in love with two potential love interests for the love triangle?? oh no, not good, not good. cries is it too much to ask for both of them to be happy?

There was also Nash, the oldest brother of the 4, but I don’t like him. There’s something off about him and I just cant with him. Now Xander, the youngest one, is such a sweet cinnamon roll. The bright and happy one of the group… or so it seems. Who knows? I definitely can’t wait to see more of him next book hehe

“Sometimes things that appear very different on the surface are actually exactly the same at their core.”

This has to be the first time that one of the first few guesses I made ended up being right?? I am beyond shocked. This needs to be marked in history. I, Lia Demonstairs, have actually guessed correctly.

ah, this feeling… so satisfying. But anyways, I had it from the beginning but throughout the book I kept changing because everyone was acting so sus. smh I still don’t know who to trust!! what is this sorcery??

And that twist at the end

Dear Authors, you cannot just end a book like that. You’re literally killing us. And when we die, we cant read the 2nd book, and when we cant read the book, that hurts you so in the end we both suffer, right? So why not take pity on our poor mortal souls and not end it like that?? Thank you.

just kidding, the masochist in me loves this torture

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Buddy read with some demons krizzie, mash, lucy, ish, charm, and devika.

ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤? 𝕎𝕙𝕚𝕔𝕙 ℍ𝕒𝕨𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕣𝕟𝕖 𝕓𝕣𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕕𝕠 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖? 𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕨𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕕𝕠 𝕚𝕗 𝕒 𝕓𝕚𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕒𝕚𝕣𝕖 𝕠𝕗𝕗𝕖𝕣𝕖𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕚𝕣 𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕥𝕦𝕟𝕖?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

Chain of Iron (The Last Hours, #2) by Cassandra Clare | Review

Rating: 5 out of 5.

Tell me, what do I say? What do I say about this masterpiece?

I would change nothing. And I mean nothing. actually maybe just that bloody ending sobs

CASSIE, YOU CANNOT EXPECT ME TO WAIT 393+ DAYS FOR CHAIN OF THORNS-


No, this is true torture. She really fooled us smh this book hurt so much.

The secrets, the lies, everything was painful. I don’t like having my heart torn into pieces 😦

There are so many ways to destroy me, ah I shouldn’t have been surprised that Cassie was able to do it again — and in the most unbelievable way possible considering where I stood last book.

My queen is ruthless :’ )


(🛑There shall be SPOILERS from Chain of Gold…you have been warned.🛑)


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“When you want something very much, you are willing to accept the shadow of that thing.”

“Even if it is just a shadow.”

That line is the embodiment of p a i n. sobs

Oh Cordelia, how my love has grown for her. Imagine marrying the love of your life, but not actually marrying him, yet suffering through it with determination and not yielding to that pain. My respect 📈

And to add on to that, you know that he’s in love with someone else that isn’t you. I don’t know how she endured that, especially when James here would continue making stupid mistakes.

But of course, it’s not his fault. As we all know, it’s because of that cursed bracelet that’s making him feel that way. That bracelet that Grace gave to him — orders given to her by Tatiana Blackthorn, the true monster here.

Cordelia’s strength and kindness is so awe-inspiring. Throughout the book she continued to amaze me sdfsdfsadf I seriously love her so much — and that’s exactly why it pained me so much to see her in pain. but that was me with everyone here, so ig that’s nothing new cries

And that dangerous oath of loyalty to the mysterious power she swore herself too…ohmygodd guys I’m so shook. I’m telling you that if you guess what and who it is, you are a scary genius — but I have to say that I don’t think anyone’s going to guess it. It’s truly something none of us could’ve imagined, so be ready.

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“I believe what he means to say is that it cannot be the responsibility of one’s friends to prevent one from doing something one believes is right.”

“It is, however, the job of one’s friends to rescue one from the consequences of one’s actions when it all goes skew-whiff.”

Ahhh James Herondale, he really does give one of the best speeches known to humanity. I must say though, I did not like him in book 1 and could not possibly compare him to Will — now though, omg he’s stolen my heart and I would die for him.

It can’t be helped that the bracelet has bewitched him into ‘loving’ Grace. And watching him and Cordelia together in their fake marriage…ohmygod my heart-

I’ve been converted to Team Jordelia.le gasp I know, practically everything I said/thought in my Chain of Gold review has totally changed. Where I once was totally Team Fairstairs…ahh I must betray my fellow friends. Jamie and Cordelia is so sweet and wholesome🥺

THEY MUST BE ENDGAME OR I WILL RIOT.

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“I know what it is to be in pain, and not to be able to seek comfort from the one you love most, not to be able to share that pain with anyone you know.”

And that brings me to my cinnamon roll, Matthew Fairchild. All I want is for Matthew to be happy. He doesn’t need to be in a romantic relationship or anything — I just want him to find his happiness and be able to forgive himself. Please, Matthew. but with how Cassie’s like, I don’t believe thats going to happen sobs

The Matthew and Cordelia moments also broke my heart. They both could relate to so many things ughhh and this was where I’d be cheering for Fairstairs, but in the end, I say that it’s better off with the two being friends — not lovers.

But why does Matthew continue to destroy pieces of my soul?? The way he hides away his grief and suffering with witty and dramatic comments…and with his consumption of alcohol omggg I’m so so scared. This really isn’t going to end well.😭 He needs help and I pray that he finds that help.

My cinnamon roll needs all the love in the world.

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“I remember what it is to be hot or cold. To want things. To need things. All those things are real for me again, as nothing else has been real to me since I died–except for you.”

sdfdsfd that is so beautiful. When I say Cassie wasn’t holding back on the feels, I truly mean that. It’s like she’s setting up everything for all of it then to come crashing down on us in the last book-

WAIT, SHE PROBABLY IS DOING THAT ON PURPOSE. That monster Her plan is working sobs I’m not ready. I’m not ready. I’m not ready.

Lucie has grown so much in this book, although it pains me to see her keeping so many secrets from the others. No longer is she being kept from the action as she was before, but now her mission, along with Grace, is to bring Jesse back from the dead and give him the life he deserves.

However, while I did ship Lucie and Jesse in the Chain of Gold, my amazing friend, Sofia brought up a good point about how bland Jesse is.

And I see that now. There really isn’t anything at all that’s really amazing about him. He’s just…a ghost? He’s kind to Grace? Hmmm maybe I’ll love him more in the next book. Watching those two together was so beautiful and heartbreaking, though.🤧

But I will say this — Lucie needs no man. She’s the strong and independent girl I love ❤

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“If there was one thing she couldn’t bear, it was other people having expectations. She would always disappoint them.”

And here’s another opinion I had in CoG that’s changed now:

I LOVE Grace.

You’re probably wondering how? or maybe you weren’t blinded by rage bc of the gracelet and could see past all of it unlike me

Grace really is the victim here. Her parents were killed when she was so young and then after being sent to live with the devil Tatiana Blackthorn, she was never cared for or loved by anyone, except for Jesse and he died-

That is just so devastating, I can’t imagine how terrible that is. And look at how corrupt and vicious Tatiana is…and then just imagine living in the same household as that demon . shudder The horror.

And then when you have Cassie giving you Grace’s POV and more of her background story/secrets…oh come on, I really can’t see how one would still despise her after learning all that. The true monster who needs to die is Tatiana.

Also, I’m so shipping Kit and Grace — they’re literally perfect for each other ohmygod I seriously just had a goofy smile on my face reading their scenes. Grace is so confused with Kit’s honesty and innocence sdfsfsfs I love it. They couldn’t be more perfect for each other.

I just have to share this scene-

“You don’t seem that surprised,” Grace observed.

“On the contrary. I’ve never heard of transferring a rune between Shadowhunters—”

“No, I meant—” Grace wished she hadn’t said anything. “I only meant that you didn’t seem surprised to see me put a rune on myself.”

“Why would I be?” Christopher asked, obviously confused. “You’re a Shadowhunter. It’s what we do.”

Grace’s heart sank. Now Christopher probably thought she was completely peculiar—and for some reason, that bothered her.

(okay, i’ll stop now)

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“I am nothing like you, Thomas, because you are one of the better people I have ever known. You have a kind nature and a heart like some knight out of a legend. Brave and proud and true and strong. All of it. And all the time you have known me, I have been a terrible person.”

So, you see. We are nothing at all alike.”

SDFDSFSAD THE FEELS. STOP IT CASSIE. STOP IT.

This is exactly what I mean. She cannot stop making me feel this way.

ThomasxAlastair moments were so sweet.

AriadnexAnna moments were filled with so much longing.

JamesxCordelia moments with so much angst.

GracexKit moments being so adorable and innocent.

LuciexJesse moments…so beautiful and heartbreaking.

My heart cannot take this I-

I truly believe nothing is going to go right in Chain of Thorns . And it doesn’t help that this series is called The Last Hours nor does it help that Cassie herself said that the ending of this series is much worse than Clockwork Princess AND I THOUGHT THAT WAS HEARTBREAKINGLY PAINFUL-

laughs in ‘I don’t want to die’

But ignoring that haha i could never, I could go on and on forever with how perfect this book felt to me. The amount of TDA references in this book?!?! ohmygodd it actually just left me shook — Cassie said that this series interconnects with The Dark Artifices and I so see that now. I’m in awe. Did she really plan all of this beforehand?? She’s a witch.

I will never be able to say everything I want to in this review. cries Already I’m reaching the word limit dammit. Honestly, if you read all of this I applaud you. It truly is an honor.🥺

So yeah, I can tell that we’re all screwed and Cassie is going to be the only one laughing by the end of this.

Death is coming.

Ave atque vale

ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕 𝕒𝕟𝕪 ℂ𝕒𝕤𝕤𝕚𝕖 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕤? 𝕎𝕒𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕒 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕙𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕒𝕥 𝕗𝕚𝕣𝕤𝕥 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕤𝕠𝕠𝕟 𝕘𝕣𝕖𝕨 𝕥𝕠 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖? 𝔸𝕣𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕝𝕤𝕠 𝕕𝕪𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕗𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕚𝕟 ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕚𝕟 𝕠𝕗 𝕀𝕣𝕠𝕟?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

A ​Court of Silver Flames (A Court of Thorns and Roses, #4) by Sarah J. Maas | Review

Rating: 5 out of 5.

ohmygod I’m sobbing that was so beautiful

All hail Queen Nesta and SJM for making me love her so much

My favourite ACOTAR book by far


I don’t know what to do with myself now.

Like actually, I think I’m gonna be in a book hangover for weeks— no, months omg I cannot. This has to be the most times I’ve ever cried in a book I swear to god I’m still crying right now.

From the beginning of the book to the end…even the acknowledgments , all of it destroyed me. My heart—

This has been said many times, but I love you so much Sarah. Sarah, my queen. Sarah, my goddess. My love for SJM will never cease to exist.

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🛑Note: The first part will have NO SPOILERS, while the 2nd will definitely have SPOILERS. I’ll have a warning when it comes to that.

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“Everyone deserves happiness. The road there isn’t easy. It is long, and hard, and often travelled utterly blind. But you keep going.

Because you know the destination will be worthwhile.”

This is Nesta’s special journey. Nesta’s journey through dealing with her trauma. Struggling with the pain she’s been in and healing. Finding the ability to love herself.

I didn’t think SJM could write a better book for mental health than ACOMAF, but I believe right here, she did exactly that. There wasn’t a single scene where I didn’t feel like my heart was breaking.

This was such an emotional ride. I could actually relate to Nesta and while it isn’t as severe as her, there are times where I’d also hate myself and feel like I deserve nothing. And seeing Nesta deal with all of this — it broke me in so many ways. To have her in so much pain and think that she herself has to change in order to be “fixed”… ohmygod no I swear I cant.😭🤚

Then there was Cassian. I love how he wouldn’t give up on Nesta and even while trying to help her, he still didn’t let her get away with everything. He kept reaching out his hand throughout it all. But in the end, the only person who could heal Nesta was Nesta herself.

You can help someone as much as you want, but at the end of all that, it’s up to them to see past that darkness and find the light. To love themselves and be happy with who they are.

To heal the parts of you that hurt so much and hurt others.

im crying again dammit This book hit me so hard. I’m actually such a mess. I never thought I could love a book this much. Not surprised it was Queen SJM that did this to me.

I will never forget the impact Nesta’s story had on me. There’s no doubt that I’ll be rereading this so many times in the future. Already I feel like rereading. My god, what has she done to me sobs is this what love feels like?

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🛑SPOILER part of the review below. Do not go past this if you haven’t read ACOSF.🛑

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She would not be mastered by anything again. She was the master of herself.

I know I talked about Nesta already but seriously she’s such a queen. Cassian wasn’t the only one there for her. We’re introduced to new characters in this book and I love it. Honestly, it had to be my favourite part of her story.

Nesta’s friendship with Emerie and Gwyn was so, so, so wholesome and sweet. Each of them had their own past that haunted them and were afraid for the other to find out. But that’s exactly what made them fit so well together. That moment where they all shared their secrets with each other, realizing that the other wouldn’t be judging them…I cried so much not surprising omg it was so beautiful to see them open up.

Their love for each other was tested especially when they had to participate in The Blood Rite. I was so shook, I actually didn’t think they’d be doing it, but ohmygod that was so stressful. I was terrified SJM would destroy me again and kill Emerie or Gwyn. Thank god she took pity on our poor hearts.

Also, omg them training to be Valkyries dsfdsfgd YES YES YES. I LOVED that so much. And to see them in action during The Blood Rite against those bastards??? Perfection.but also really stressful bc my gurls🥺 ALSO THE FRIENDSHIP BRACELETS OHMYGOD I CANNOT. HEARTBREAKING AND BEAUTIFUL.

I legit hope Gwyn and Emerie play bigger roles in the next two books, especially ahem because I have some ships in mind.😏 Yes, I may be too early but I believe in EmeriexMor and AzrielxGwyn🙏

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“The first time I saw that look on your face, you were still human. Still human, and I nearly went to my knees before you.”

Tell me, what’s one of the most heartbreaking scenes you’ve ever read?

I’ll tell you mine — CHAPTER 50. That was so heart-wrenching, my heart died. My own sisters were looking at me like I was insane. But something even more heartbreaking?

CASSIAN CRYING

That completely and utterly destroyed me. I was dying on the inside. Just thinking about him crying, is making me cry. I swear to god, I literally put my heart through torture reading this.

Seeing through Cassian’s POV is the greatest gift we could’ve asked for. All the flaws and insecurities he feels, I’m in so much p a i n. I adore him even more than before. He was there for Nesta and Nesta was there for him, my heart-

“Forgiveness is not that easy.”

“Forgiveness is something we also grant ourselves. And I can talk to you until these mountains crumble around us, but if you don’t wish to be forgiven, if you don’t want to stop feeling this way…it won’t happen.”

Hello? Please stop destroying me. Please, Cas.

“You don’t need to become some impossible ideal. You don’t need to become sweet and simpering. You can give everyone that I Will Slay My Enemies look—which is my favourite look, by the way. You can keep that sharpness I like so much, that boldness and fearlessness. I don’t want you to ever lose things, to cage yourself.”

STOP. THE. PAIN. * cries * Cas, when did you become so wise and give such heart crushing speeches?? This is one of the most beautiful lines I’ve ever read. No question about it.

Also, to finally find out what was in the solstice gift Cassian wanted to give Nesta — it was A BOOK. Okay imma stop right there, I’m crying again. I cant do this.🥺😭

(And Azzy & Nesta’s friendship…sobs beautiful. HE GAVE HER A FAELIGHT FOR READING AS A SOLSTICE GIFT. PLEASE, MY HEART-)

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“That’s the key, isn’t it? To know the darkness will always remain, but how you choose to face it, handle it…that’s the important part. To not let it consume. To focus upon the good, the things that fill you with wonder.”

“The struggle with that darkness is worth it, just to see such things.”

Am I really dedicating a whole section to The House of Wind? Yes, yes I am.

I absolutely love Nesta, but my god The House of Wind is the BEST part of this book. Absolutely amazing and kind. I didn’t I could love a house so much, but here I am.

Nesta wished for a friend and the House became that friend for her. It encouraged her to do more, pushed her to try more. The House reads romance novels. I’m crying, I love the House so much. And the darkness that swirled at the bottom of the library?? I can’t believe that was the heart of the House ohmygod please I love it. The way Nesta accepted the way it was, just like the House did that for her…sdfgdsfs I’m in pain. sobs too much for my heart.

AND IT GAVE NESTA CHOCOLATE CAKE AND ROMANCE BOOKS. What’s not to love about the House??? woah wait, why is this reminding me of celaena with her love of chocolate cake and books shook

The House of Wind is e v e r y t h i n g.

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“I went into the Cauldron, too, you know. And it captured me. And yet somehow all you think of is what my trauma did to you.

(This is Nesta’s book, but I just have to say this.)

I’m guilty of this too, but I think most of us hated Elain because of how we saw her, being sweet, kind and useless…and judged her right away, forgetting that she also is still suffering going into the Cauldron and with what happened in the war against Hybern.

Just like Nesta, Elain has a different way of showing her trauma and that’s by hiding it away and making it look like she’s okay, using the image everyone thinks of her being–sweet and kind. It’s just like we all think of her and hate her for that. Everyone expects Elain to be one thing, so she acts like that BUT is that truly Elain?

So yeah, I judged her too early. (Feysand’s POV really helped with this too) I shouldn’t hate her right away because there’s still her story to be told. I’m actually excited to see that.

But even knowing all of this, I still don’t like Elain.🤷‍♀️ I understand it and everything but just something about her rubs me off the wrong way. I don’t hate her, but I don’t like her either. I have no doubt Sarah will make us love, or at the very least, like Elain next book.

Also, I seriously do not ship her with Azriel.

I believe Azriel and Gwyn would be such a beautiful pair ohmygod I’d love that so much. If the three brothers get with the three archeron sisters…no no no, please no. And I absolutely love the Azriel POV. My heart is hurting so much for Azzy🥺 He needs the love he deserves.

Omg every time he’d appear as the “chaperone” for Nesta and Cassian–omg I was dying of laughter. I loved those scenes. Poor Azzy having to deal with Nesta and Cas, tsk tsk naughty Fae. But the friendship between Nesta and Azzy ohmygod my heart, im crying it was so beautiful. Azzy have Nesta

Also, something else as to why I think AzrielxElain wont be endgame is because during the solstice dance, both Cas and Eris talk about how smothered/plain Elain is wearing black, which I feel like is SJM’s way of saying that Elain isn’t compatible with The Night Court and it’s darkness & shadows. ahhh I truly feel like she’s going to go to another court in the next book.

Also Azzy’s shadows disappear when they’re around Elain. Meanwhile, the shadows dont disappear around Gwyn…they come alive around her. I don’t know about you, but it looks like SJM is trying to say something👀 I stan Gwynriel

“I am the rock against which the surf crashes.”

“Nothing can break me.”

AND THE FACT THAT AZZY SINGS AND GWYN SINGS SDFGSDFD I CANT😭🤚

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“I’ll deny it to the grave if you tell anyone, but I missed you too, Cursebreaker.”

Helion is amazing sdfgdsfsdf I love him so much. I think we can all agree with needing more Helion these next few books. And for Lucien to find out the truth🥺 We need a Lucien book so bad omg so many books needed.

I’m so curious as to what really was going on when Nesta asked about Jurian & Vassa and Lucien replied sharply HMM I may be reading too much into that, but something’s going on ughhh I wanna know more about those three.

ALSO, ERIS. There is SO MUCH MORE to Eris then is shown. I really want to see more Eris and his story. I believe there’s a lot more to him and Cas even sees that he’s a decent guy.

Oh, another thing I forgot to mention was the fact that Nesta Made three magic weapons and one of them she named the sword Ataraxia, which means Inner Peace…I’m in love. I stan Nesta so much. She grew to be so much stronger than she was before annnnnd the tears are coming in again.😃✌

This reminds me of Feyre and Nesta’s relationship. sobs It brings me joy to see the two finally understand and show their love for each other. No matter what, Feyre wouldn’t give up on her either. She tried so hard to help Nesta and I love Feyre so much for that. Unlike cough some people cough Rhysand. I actually despised him at one point in the novel, it was so messed up. I don’t love him anymore, but I’m glad everything’s good between Nesta and Rhys now.

Although, I have to say that when Nesta apologized to everyone it irked me. Like yeah, she did say harmful things to them, but the Inner Circle did too?? Honestly, they should’ve apologized too, mainly Rhys and Amren but ah, that didn’t happen rage they should grovel at her feet.

Those last few chapters had crying with them so much ohmygod even though I knew Rhys and Feyre wouldn’t die sdfgdsfg TALK ABOUT STRESSFUL. To see them all in so much pain and fear broke me so much.

Their baby boy’s name is Nyx — please erase my feelings. So beautiful that ending. Dark haired, blue eyed Nyx.🥺 I’m crying god.

(Okay I’ll stop being an emotional mess.)

OMG WAIT. JUST ONE MORE THING I REALIZED. THIS:

THAT WAS AELIN. AELIN WAS THE RED SHOOTING STAR OHMYGOD I AM SHOOK FR WTH OMG I DIDNT NOTICE THAT THE FIRST TIME WHAT THE HELL SARAH. OMG YOU WITCH, I LOVE YOU. FDDSFGDSDF AELIN APPEARED OHMYGODD I CANT GET OVER THIS. AELIN FLEW THROUGH THE 26 REALMS

(Okay, NOW I’ll stop)

All in all, this was absolutely perfect in my eyes. minus the too much smut Sarah has once again made me fall in love with her book and now I don’t know what to do with my life.

I pray that the next book is about Az and I’m hoping that it comes out next year.

Thank you, Sarah, for creating this beautiful and inspiring story.

In the beginning
And in the end
There was Darkness
And nothing more.

𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥’𝕤 𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕗𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕞𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕒𝕝 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕥𝕙 𝕣𝕖𝕡 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕤? ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕 𝔸ℂ𝕆𝕊𝔽? 𝕎𝕙𝕠’𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕗𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕣?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

🏹January 2021 ~ TBR🏹

Ahhh it already feels like the year is passing by fast! Not complaining of course, especially because now there are only 5 more months left of school!!!😭🥳

January actually wasn’t a bad month. Compared to others months I definitely didn’t have as much 5 stars, but I did find a new all-time-favourite ahhhh The Dragon Republic was seriously just amazing and I’m so much in love with Kuang’s world and characters.🥺

I also, surprisingly, got some ARCs in although unfortunately none of them were favourites😅 (altho there is one, but technically i started in January and finished it in February so that doesn’t count lol)

And then there were some novellas that I read that were just heartbreakingly beautiful ughh just thinking about them now makes me want to burst into tears.

Here’s everything I read~


Rating: 4.5 out of 5.

Goodreads


Rating: 4 out of 5.

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Rating: 4 out of 5.

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Rating: 5 out of 5.

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Rating: 4 out of 5.

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Rating: 5 out of 5.

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Rating: 2 out of 5.

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Rating: 4 out of 5.

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Rating: 3 out of 5.

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That’s 9 books I read, with an average rating of 3.94 ayyy I’m actually happy about that — I feel like I’ve been giving 5 stars too easily, so one of my goals in 2021, is to be a little stricter with my ratings. 5 stars should be reserved for the true masterpieces, although I can’t help if nostalgia gets in the way😆

All in all this wasn’t a bad month, although in terms of blogging I’d say that it was ahaha I missed some days and have felt a little overwhelmed in posting/not in the mood, but I’m sure February will be better!

I believe it’s school making me feel like this.😂

ℍ𝕠𝕨’𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕗𝕚𝕣𝕤𝕥 𝕞𝕠𝕟𝕥𝕙 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕪𝕖𝕒𝕣 𝕘𝕠? ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕒𝕟𝕪 𝕟𝕖𝕨 𝕗𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖𝕤? 𝔸𝕟𝕪 𝕤𝕡𝕖𝕔𝕚𝕒𝕝 𝕘𝕠𝕒𝕝𝕤?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕

A Vow So Bold and Deadly (Cursebreakers, #3) by Brigid Kemmerer | Review

Face your fears, fight the battle.
Emberfall is crumbling fast, torn between those who believe Rhen is the rightful prince and those who are eager to begin a new era under Grey, the true heir. Grey has agreed to wait two months before attacking Emberfall, and in that time, Rhen has turned away from everyone—even Harper, as she desperately tries to help him find a path to peace.

Fight the battle, save the kingdom.
Meanwhile, Lia Mara struggles to rule Syhl Shallow with a gentler hand than her mother. But after enjoying decades of peace once magic was driven out of their lands, some of her subjects are angry Lia Mara has an enchanted prince and magical scraver by her side. As Grey’s deadline draws nearer, Lia Mara questions if she can be the queen her country needs.

As two kingdoms come closer to conflict, loyalties are tested, love is threatened, and an old enemy resurfaces who could destroy them all, in this stunning conclusion to bestselling author Brigid Kemmerer’s Cursebreaker series.

Rating: 4 out of 5.

wait, wait WHAT-

that cannot be the end. I-

I don’t know how to feel.

that moment when the ending prevents a book from being a 5 stars *sadness*



I’ll start off with this—RHEN. DESERVED. MORE.

I refuse to believe that this is the end of the Cursebreakers world. There literally has to be more because that ending did not resolve everything and if I’m being honest, I’d say the only people who truly got their happy ending are Grey and Lia Mara…and I could care less about them (I know, ✨unpopular opinion✨).

Not saying that Rhen and Harper didn’t get their HEA but like there’s still so many questions I have for them AND IT ENDED WITHOUT ASDFBGGDSAMNMBSBDAJSSDNAM IM ANGRY. I WANTED A DIFFERENT OUTCOME FOR RHEN *sobs*

That’s probably just me and my unhealthy obsession with Rhen though. If I looked at this in a more critical POV, Brigid really did end this series in a realistic way, where not everything is fixed and everyone’s happy.

ughhh still doesn’t mean I have to like it. Rhen deserved more and I will forever keep saying that until he gets it. meanwhile I’ll be waiting for when she releases info on a spin off or something



(🛑There shall be SPOILERS from the previous books…you have been warned🛑)

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“Yield to yourself. Yield to forgiveness. Yield to happiness. Yield to this moment. It’s not hers. It’s yours. It’s mine.”

“It’s ours.”

Tell me that isn’t just one of the sweetest speeches in history? And that scene–ohmygod I wanted to burst into tears who am i kidding? i totally did

From book 1, Rhen and Harper have had my heart and that will never change. They both made terrible mistakes, but what matters more is that they learned and changed for the better.Especially Rhen.

I know many despised Rhen ofc i didnt after whipping both Grey and our little cinnamon roll, Tycho in A Heart So Fierce and Broken—and what he did was definitely unforgiveable, even after learning that Lilith was behind making him do that.

I’m not making excuses for his actions, but I believe you have to look at it a bit differently and see it from the other side of the story. We didn’t get Rhen’s POV in AHSFAB so we wouldn’t know, but here…we see how much it pained him to do that to his brother and best friend, but in the end, Rhen would’ve done it all over again if it meant Harper was safe from Lilith.

And I respect that.🥺 That’s true love right there even if it did harm others in the process.

So yes, I absolutely loved how many scenes we got with Harper and Rhen as you could tell from my status updates asdfghjhfgdsaf my heart is so happy thinking about them even now.

Also, where Harper might’ve looked all docile and unlike her usual self in AHSFAB, she definitely wasn’t like that here. It was the Harper we all know and love who didn’t let Rhen get away with *ahem* certain actions and I lived for those moments.

AND I WILL NEVER FORGET RHEN BLUSHING

N E V E R

I’m gonna keep rereading that scene until I die. It was amazing.😭💖

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If my people must see strength, then we need to show them ours.

Lia Mara definitely grew a lot from the previous book. She still longs for peace between nations and all people, and although she has so many come at her for being too kind, too fair, and too just — which leads to being ‘weak’, Lia Mara doesn’t let that change her ways and continues acting as the queen she wants to be for her people.

Strength is shown in many ways, and Lia Mara truly showed that to be possible.

And then there’s Grey. As someone who started off being a royal guard and now this…truly a huge leap from the first book.

He’s become much more confident in himself and a great leader to those around him (tho that’s not really surprising…he’s Grey). No longer does he always follow orders given from others, but he gives the orders.

But one thing that hasn’t changed is that he’s still ~Scary Grey~ and the big softie we fell in love with.🥺

Too bad I couldn’t care much about his and Lia Mara’s POVs though. I feel like AVSBAD was really for Rhen & Harper and I’M 100% OKAY WITH THAT.🥰

Every time I got to their POVs, my heart would do a happy dance and whenever I was not reading from their POVs, I’d literally skip ahead to see how many more pages were left until I got to be back in Harper/Rhen’s POV (yes, I know I’m sad).

Living for their scenes is what I do✌

I swear to god, I was seriously going to give this 5 stars and move it on my all-time-fav shelf bUT THAT ENDING-

aghhh I despise that ending with every fibre of my being. Why, brigid, why? But I still love this series so much and for that, I shall continue praying there’s a spin-off.

Actually, I bet there is going to be a spin-off — and if I’m right, let it be known that I am a wickedly, brilliant fortune teller.and if I’m wrong…well rip💔

Oh Grey, Lia Mara, Rhen, and Harper…I’d say goodbye, but I don’t believe this is the last we’ll see each other. If it is altho i wont allow that, then my final words are:

FOR THE GOOD OF EMBERFALL🔥

And down with Syhl Shallow.🙂

(*cough* HarperxRhen for life)

ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕖 ℂ𝕦𝕣𝕤𝕖𝕓𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕜𝕖𝕣 𝕤𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕤? 𝕎𝕙𝕠 𝕕𝕠 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖 𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕖 — ℝ𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕠𝕣 𝔾𝕣𝕖𝕪? 𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥’𝕤 𝕒𝕟 𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕠 𝕒 𝕤𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕨𝕖𝕣𝕖𝕟’𝕥 𝕤𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕤𝕗𝕚𝕖𝕕 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙?

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨!💕